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So yesterday I listened to Rick Scott bitch about why he wouldn't expand medicaid for the state. Yeah, god forbid this son of a bitch actually does the right thing for Floridians for once.

I read a News 13 article to find out more. Here's one area of interest:

TALLAHASSEE (AP) --
Gov. Rick Scott reversed course Monday, saying he no longer supports Medicaid expansion as talks break down between Florida and its request for the federal government to extend funds to hospitals that serve low-income patients.

Scott wants the federal Centers for Medicare and Medicaid Services to give Florida about $1 billion in hospital funds, but the feds have been denying that request for about a year, standing firm that the funds will end June 30. Negotiations between state and federal health officials turned ugly in the past week, with the state accusing federal officials of walking away from discussions and sending a series of frenzied press statements warning that a key federal health official was going on vacation and talks had dissolved. Federal health officials have denied the claims and said they remain in contact with the state.

The hospital fund negotiations have spilled over to Medicaid because advocates say the hospitals wouldn't need as much federal funding if the state expanded Medicaid to 800,000 Floridians because the hospitals would have more paying customers. The federal government has offered to pay the entire Medicaid expansion bill for the first few years and then phase down its funding to 95 percent, but Scott and House Republicans are concerned officials won't make good on that promise.

Oh please. We all know this god damned slimeball won't do a damn thing for the state unless he and his friends can find a way to pocket the cash in the process. And speaking of which:
The Senate crafted a replacement program that it wants the federal government to consider that would take billions in federal funds so Medicaid recipients could purchase private insurance through vouchers. Senate leaders have said they will not vote for a budget if it requires large cuts to hospitals. But House Republicans, who are opposed to any expansion of Medicaid, have contended that the federal government could renew the hospital money without expanding Medicaid coverage.
That's right. A voucher program. Make no mistake, this isn't about what's best for Florida. This is about how much governor Blinky and his cronies can pocket before the shit really hits the fan. Budget cuts to hospitals? Yeah, right. Many hospitals around the state are already suffering because our know-nothing state government refuses to do anything besides 'cut taxes'.

Fuck you, Rick.

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It's just a few days after my 31st birthday, so okay, I'll bite. It's been about 3 years since my diagnosis and official 'welcome' into the world of the Autism Spectrum. It's been...bittersweet. I've learned a lot about myself since the diagnosis, but thanks to my lack of access to services that might help, I'm still stuck in the same rut I always was.

I guess the only difference between now and let's say, 10 years ago before I started college, is that I've got 2 degrees and I've been in a relationship for nearly 8 years. Still no job prospects despite my best efforts, and still no faith that anything will come my way at all.

But that's what most of us have ever had to deal with: Lack of real opportunities. You know, the kind that might actually give us a shot at the now non-existent American Dream. Instead, most of us end up in jobs we absolutely hate. Fast food work. Bagging groceries. Busing tables.

Granted, those are respectable lines of work and the folks who bust their asses in those jobs deserve more respect than their asshole managers or CEOs, or in many cases, customers will ever give them. But that doesn't change the fact that those jobs make folks like us miserable to the point of near rage. Oh, and did I mention we don't stand a chance in hell of ever obtaining advancement opportunities in those same rage-tastic positions?

So here's an idea: Instead of paying lip service to us with a 'day of awareness', why not give us the chance to show folks around the world what we can actually do for a change. Someone had to say it.

See you around,

Homer

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I guess I'll just start off with this: I suck with advice. I certainly don't do well with giving it, but I do worse with taking it.

I've been hard on some well meaning folks over the last couple of days and I won't try to excuse it anymore as doing so serves no purpose.

I guess I've been asking the wrong questions. If I need to volunteer to get my foot in the door someplace, where should I go? I'd like to find a place that plays to my strengths. I guess I could go back to my county's natural resources office as I live less than a block away from it now and I still keep in touch with people there.

It might help drive the boredom away.

Sorry everyone,

Homer

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It's a valid question, don't you think? Funny thing about that is many of my teachers in my college days assured me IT wasn't going anywhere. Boy how fucking wrong they were. By the time my class graduated big business had already done what they do to any industry that offers a chance at a decent wage: They sent it overseas just to save a buck.

And even if one could find work, it was almost always temporary and shit-wage/no benefits with the 'possibility of being hired full time'. The possibility was non-existent, of course. Or at least it's been my experience with my county's Voc Rehab services. I can't really blame the counselors there. They really do try their best, but that doesn't change the fact that Brevard's disability services are a fucking joke.

So to make a long story short, does anyone have any idea how I can do data entry from home? It's one of the few things I'm actually good at.

See you around,

Homer

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Tue Mar 10, 2015 at 06:16 PM PDT

The Aspie Corner: Stuck in a Rut

by Homer177

I haven't been around for a bit. Perhaps it's because I feel like I've had nothing to contribute to the conversation here. For the last 3 years I've been in a slump I can't seem to get out of, but I've had to deal with this sort of thing for my entire life. The depression, I mean. It comes and goes, I guess, but it's been there for as long as I remember.

It probably started in my early teens. Back then my dad had just died and I was still learning to cope. Losing a family member to something like alcoholism is something you never truly get over. That, and having to deal with my mom's abusive boyfriend right after the fact and the unwillingness of my mom to acknowledge the situation. She finally did after a while and kicked the guy out before it got worse, but it didn't really get better after that.

Then there was trying to cope with my own situations and my peers throughout middle and high school. Boy that was pure hell and I'm never going back. When something is 'wrong' with you, everyone knows. Everyone. And once that happens, you have no social life whatsoever...unless you consider other kids and in some cases, teachers, calling you 'retarded'. I graduated, but just barely. I was lucky to be part of the last class that was able to take the HSCT after failing the FCAT in 8th and 10th grade.

College a few years later was a very different story. Just to give a little back story on this, I'd spent a few years in the world of food service and grocery stores and eventually, after not being able to hold down several jobs, I felt college was my last hope. I had people there willing to help me and my teachers actually gave a damn.

I came through it all with 2 degrees, an overall 3.2 average, and during all that, managed to meet the woman I later married. Been with her almost 8 years and married for nearly 4. She and her family are very supportive to put up with me and my antics and I do everything I can to help them out.

Even after all that, part of me still feels like I'm in a rut I can't get out of. So what the hell do I do? I can't really get the psychiatric help I need because I don't have the money and can't even get medicaid, and of course the sliding scale psych places have a waiting list that's a mile long.

I guess I'll have to keep waiting.

See you around,

Homer

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Today my employment specialist dragged me to another worthless job fair hosted by none other than Goodwill. Why was it worthless? Well, let me tell you who was there. Hotel and restaurant chains, Lowe's, Home Depot, and fucking 7-Eleven. They also had Regions Bank, Primerica, and a few shit wage staffing companies who hire temp workers for pennies on the dollar. Oh, and the VA was looking for disabled vets only. Makes sense, I guess.

This is why I no longer give a god damn about finding a job. This is all we have to look forward to now, although it's always been this way for disabled people...especially in the criminally insane state of Florida. I always hear folks talk about how they want better for the disabled, but until I see otherwise, it's all just lip service.

Before anyone asks, yes, I was dressed as though I was going to be interviewed. I had several resumes. The suit and tie. Neatly shaven. Nice and polite to everyone I met there. All that crap. And it got me nowhere. Why? Because that isn't what 'Murica wants, it seems.

Nope. The people of this country decided long ago that my fucking generation didn't deserve any shot at a decent living. Fuck that. 'Murica's dumbass voters decided they'd rather be worked to death while praying to the Libertarian Free Market for a financial miracle instead. After all, we're all just temporarily embarrassed billionaires just waiting for the day we can all just take our place among the Davos Terrorists and tell the peons they can live with less.

If this is what we have to look forward to, I can't even imagine how much worse it'll be for our kids and grandkids.

See you around,

Homer

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Fri Feb 20, 2015 at 03:40 PM PST

I Deleted My Youtube Channel Today

by Homer177

That's right. I quit Youtube. After witnessing all sorts of stupid, stupid shit on that site, especially over the last three years and not a single channel worth watching or following, I decided to delete my own channel. This isn't the first time, but this time, I'm not going back.

Youtube, much like Facebook, has always had an obviously right-wing slant but there were a few people who were a nice counterbalance and were worth listening to. Well, after all this time, it seems most have just given up. I can't say I blame them. You can only take so much stupidity before you go insane.

As far as youtube goes, I say let the trolls have it. Once again, those of us generally sane or left-wing have lost a voice...not that we've ever truly had one in the United States anyway.

See you around,

Homer

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For the last month I'd been trying to figure out how my hard drive, which it 1 terabyte, was nearly full when I hardly download anything at all. So I looked up some programs to help with this and I found WizTree. I downloaded, installed and then ran it and it turned out that more than half of my hard drive was from system restore information. Thankfully it didn't take too long to remedy this and I brought it down to 10 percent of my hard drive instead of 50.

I also took the liberty of upgrading an old as dirt video card and so far this one I found for a good price on ebay seems to be working well. I guess going from a 1 gigabyte ATI Radeon HD4870 to an AMD Radeon HD6950 with 2 gigs isn't a huge jump given we have the R9 series these days, but it's about as high as my stupid Dell motherboard will let me go where video hardware is concerned.

In any case it runs games a lot smoother than my old 4870 did and that's what matters. Still, this is the one thing I hate, especially where games are concerned. Every 18 months or so the requirements and recommended hardware get more outlandish and yet we don't see too many innovations beyond 'better graphics'. With a lot of games these days it feels like game play and actual experience are almost secondary.

Consoles? I've got a Nintendo Wii and a modified 3DS with a huge battery. Otherwise I usually stick to my pc for playing other games because consoles themselves aren't what they used to be. The Xbox 360 and PS3 were both horrendously overpriced at the time of their release which meant I practically sat that generation out. The Xbox One and PS4 aren't much better. Slightly better visuals, sure, but not a whole lot else.

I usually love to tinker with hardware, software and all that jazz, but I seriously would love to see a true game changer, because I'm almost burnt out as far as technology goes.

See you around,

Homer

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My mother in law was talking to some folks she works with at the county school board and it seems she thinks it's a good idea for me to write a blog and record videos of me making an ass out of myself. No, I don't mean literally make someone else laugh at my expense. I just do a piss poor job putting myself out there.

I also have reservations about trying to make money off a blog because it seems everyone and their mother does that now. Hell, you can even make a bit of change from views on youtube videos. I don't see how they do it, but personally I'd rather be working.

I suppose a blog about Asperger's is a good idea because people should get it (Asperger's , that is) straight from the horse's mouth, but making money doing it? I don't know..seems like a conflict of interest to me. What do you guys think?

See you around,

Homer

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If you've been in the comment section of any website on the interwebz, chances are you've come across many thoughtless, conversation stopping cliches I'm about to list here in this diary. I feel the need to make this list because I'm getting tired of seeing them pop up everywhere I go. I know that hoping we can have real, actual conversations without these terms or cliches popping up is a pipe dream, but one can hope, right?

As you go through this list, just remember that these cliches are used entirely for the sake of shutting down or controlling conversation. They wouldn't be shouted from the rooftops otherwise.

I'll do my best to remain as unbiased as possible, but that can be very difficult to do at times with some subjects. With that said, here we go below the orange flip.

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Sat Jan 31, 2015 at 08:55 AM PST

The Aspie Corner: I Got Nothin'

by Homer177

My employment specialist called me today and told me that her marketing team had been looking for leads, and of course, every single one was a dead end for one of two reasons: A. they require more education or experience than I have or B. it's too far out of my way.

I guess that's just how it goes in the world of IT jobs, but this is getting fucking ridiculous. It doesn't take a genius to figure out why employers are doing this, either. The more people who are unemployed, the shittier wages get. And of course, since Florida is a so-called Right-to-Work state, workers either can't fight back or are too afraid to fight back because they'll lose what little they do get.

You see, I've been in and out of my county's Voc Rehab for well over a decade, and it seems no matter how hard I try to overcome my disabilities to become a 'productive' member of society, I end up back at square one for my efforts. And the employment agencies who work with Voc Rehab in my area have got to be the most unprepared I've ever seen.

I guess that can't be blamed on them, though. Florida isn't exactly known for great services for people with disabilities. And Governor Voldemort and his cronies are poised to make things even worse so they can pocket even more of our tax money through bogus tax breaks and other stupid policies designed to make themselves even richer.

What makes this worse though, is that even though Voc Rehab regularly helps people with secondary education, these employment agencies they work with don't know what the hell to do when it comes time to find employment. Maybe that's because the real world has only ever seen us as a limitless source of cheap unskilled labor and nothing beyond that.

With all that being said, I read a pretty nice diary talking about a bakery that actually gives workers a chance to succeed regardless of their background. Sure would be nice if there were something like that where I live, because I'm sure as hell getting sick and tired of being looked at as someone who 'can't'.

See you around,

Homer

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This coming Wednesday I'm going to a doctor's appointment to discuss my meds and have them changed yet again because they're like sugar pills to me. Of course, since I'm stuck at a sliding scale clinic and can't afford an actual psychiatrist this is what I have to deal with every three months. Fuck you, Florida. There, I said it.

I mention this because I heard Voldemort is supposedly 'flirting' with Medicaid expansion for the state...yeah, flirting....riiiight. The only way he'd ever allow such a thing to happen is if he finds a way to pocket he'd get from the feds in the process.

Let me put it like this: Meds won't do jack shit for an Aspie on constant edge because they can't find work no matter how hard they try (Yup, that's me). Not being able to make a living or find a source of income will do that to a person, not that many people give a shit about that because they too are hanging on to their jobs by a thread. Can't say I blame 'em when they have their own asses to worry about.

However, these same people also rag on unions and workers for always demanding 'more' while ignoring employers who not only demand more from their workers, but continue to lower their wages and take their benefits in turn. Unions would at least prevent that to some degree. The bosses want their profits and their bonuses yesterday and workers are too scared to fight back. It'll be a while longer before that even begins to change.

As for me....well, like I said, new meds won't change a damn thing, but it's not like I have much of a choice. Anything's better than nothing I guess.

See you around,

Homer

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