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  •  I suffer from depression and have been sucidal. (7+ / 0-)

    And the one attempt I made was with a rifle that my brother brought into the house. Had it been a hand gun it would have been a successful attempt. I have never been adjudicated or incarcerated or in the criminal justice system. I have been hospitalized 4 times but never against my will. There is nothing that can stop me from getting a gun. I have never tried pills, hanging, suffocation, or opening my wrists. This takes planning. Not that I have not though about all these methods. But a handgun can be used without planning. A sudden urge and then you no longer have a head. Or a face. Just load the gun, put it in your mouth and pull the trigger.

    So he committed suicide but if he did not have access to a gun he might not have done that. It might have given him time to think.

    •  {{{{ kmackle }}}} (2+ / 0-)

      I accidentally passed over your comment earlier, and I'm at work now so it's difficult to respond in a timely manner. But I've been thinking about you and this comment today. I'm so sorry for your struggle and wish you better days ahead. Thanks for joining this discussion.

    •  Like clementine, I hope for better days ahead (1+ / 0-)
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      for you.

      Bob did have time to think. He had time to get into a fight with his girlfriend, see her off on her weekend away, drive an hour and a half home to this house, cancel the cat sitter, move a lot of things that were blocking access to the filing cabinet, remove the silver bullets, lock the computer room door inside the house, drive an hour and a half back to his girlfriend's house (across a toll bridge where he had to stop to pay toll), break into her locked up house - something that probably took at least a bit of time to figure out how to do, because Bob was no burglar and hadn't done anything even faintly resembling this before - go to her bedroom, break into where the pistol was, test-shoot with the first bullet into the wall, and only then shoot himself. This was not a matter of a sudden urge; he had hours to rethink. This took quite a lot of time and effort. It took planning. That it was a competition target pistol he used, a form of handgun, doesn't change the fact that he really had to work at this.

      And this is exactly why I'd taken my gun with me when I left him over a year earlier and put it in a secure facility, basically a private vault business where one could rent extremely secured storage, where he couldn't get it. And it's why I say that if she hadn't had a gun, he would have found some other way. He wasn't depressed, but his anger was such a presence that it was like being married to that as a separate entity as well as Bob.

      kmackle, thank you for your response.'I'm sorry you had things happen to you that drove you to such straits. May those times be far behind you.

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      by Kitsap River on Sat Dec 15, 2012 at 10:41:47 PM PST

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