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    A cousin of mine shot himself in the head a couple of years ago.  I called the law enforcement agency that covered the case and got a copy of their investigative report.  [My cousin was living in a rental property; he had enough "courtesy" to go out back and shoot himself in the head there rather than leave a mess inside for his kids or his landlord or someone else to clean up.  I thought that odd, but also found it strangely comforting because basically, at heart, my cousin was a nice guy.  Knowing what he was like as a kid and an adult he is the last person in the world one would have ever thought would have committed suicide.]

    My brother told me some of the things he was told about our cousin's life the few months leading up to our cousin's suicide..., and it made sense if I looked at it from our cousin's perspective.  It was a rotten thing to do because he had adult kids and grandkids who loved him completely, and I knew from conversations with him that his kids and grandkids each had him wrapped around their little fingers (he was a doting father and grandfather)..., but because of the series of events with origins years earlier, I actually understood (from his point of view) why he blew his brains out..., so I can't, don't, won't judge him or condemn him for killing himself.

    The domino actions and events that had origins years earlier came to a series of junctions with events after that, so there's not one single solitary thing anyone could have said beyond a certain point that would have stopped him.  There was an end he could control.  It was as simple as that.

    Most suicides I don't understand and why will never be answered.

    I have zero comprehension of those who kill others before turning a gun on themselves.  That's just spiteful and pointless and leaves the survivors of all kinds with less understanding than average suicides.

    But, in this one instance for this one person, my cousin, I actually understood why.

    I'm sick of attempts to steer this nation from principles evolved in The Age of Reason to hallucinations derived from illiterate herdsmen. ~ Crashing Vor

    by NonnyO on Tue May 14, 2013 at 04:09:55 PM PDT

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