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  •  I hear you.. (5+ / 0-)

    ..and I am familiar with the feelings of despair you share here, and on your other sites. (My god, you are a talented guy, Bud!)

    I know the deep black hole of serious depression and loss. I remember how it felt to yearn for death more than life, and how close I came to leaving this shit hole, more than once. (Only to be tossed back like a fish too small to keep.)

    Yet here I still am, an old woman now, and there you still are. I think we're still here because we have to tell our tale, Bud. Over and over and over, no matter how few seem to hear. That's what writers live to do, and you, my friend, are a writer. A recorder. A witness to this life you've led, and now you must keep on writing about it.

    My hope for you is that SSDI comes through, like it did for me, when I was 56 and ready to head for the final exit for sure. No way could this wreck of a body survive the streets and you can be sure nobody wanted to hire a nurse with a permanently wrecked back.

    Finally, it did come through. No one who hasn't been through this can possibly understand how much it meant to know that there was going to be enough money to keep myself safe and fed. That 800.00 a month was literally a fortune to me..and it gave me something to stand on. And after a period of being pretty astonished to discover I didn't want to die anymore..all sorts of unexpectedly wonderful doors opened up. I've had 27 years of good living since the last time I planned my final exit, 27 years of being very glad I am alive. I have a strong feeling it could go this way for you, too, Bud.

    I will keep you in heart and mind and send all sorts of good vibes and wishes your way!

    When all the trees have been cut down, when all the animals have been hunted, when all the waters are polluted, when all the air is unsafe to breathe, only then will you discover you cannot eat money. Cree Prophecy

    by scribe on Wed May 22, 2013 at 12:01:58 AM PDT

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