I've been having some strange experiences over the last few months. It seems to have started the day I saw a photo of Madeline McCaan on the news. From there is has been wierd expereince after another.
Just so you know I'm not tucked away in some institution . Let me giv eyou a quick run down. 44 yr old female; BS in Soc, Athro & gerontolgy; basically an atheist- but intune with the cosmic 'strings' and energy; into animals as companions and as an occupation, but still eat meat.So what does this have to do with a missing 4 yr old? I too have a line extending from my pupil down in my right eye. In 44 yrs I've never seen anyone else with this ocular feature. So it sent me into reseach.
And although I may have truly lost my mind- I feel compelled to write this post.
I first began to reseach the eye. Was it a genetic or deveolpemental 'defect'? I found there is a syndrome called "Cat Eye" . The strip is related to a form of birth defects. Quite devastating- mentally and physically feature of retardation. the syndrome is rare. I wondered how rare is it if there are no other abnormalities. I nor madeline appear to suffer from these. Is it possible we are even more rare? Or is it just what I've alwys thought- a DNA glitch. I wrote a Cat Eye genetic researcher for their imput- no response.
I had also become more drwn to my ancestory- could madeline an dI be related. It wasn't my first thought as I jumped on One Great Family, but it floated up to my thoughts as I moved along one side of my family. I was always told my mothers side was all Irish. But infact they are not. They actually came together in Scotland and moved to Ireland ( probably due to religious ideas and practices. Madline's dad is obviously Scottish. More intersting was that a female line orginated in France ( Jardine- Motto- Cave Adsum- "Beware I am Present" or WATCHING. Creepy. So I ( at 44 and pass out at he sight of needles- was moved to get a tattoo of my eye in Horus fashion placed on my left shoulder- no idea where this motivation really came from).
In conjunction with my family history- I run into the Knights Templar and the Masons, there seems to be a correlation between the movement of the Jardines and the Templars- again possible religious reasons. I must admit during this time ( a week or tow) I finally watch the Da Vinci Code (I'm cheap - I only see block busters on the big screen anymore- the rest I wait for cable). I'm not suggesting I'm of that line, but the Templars reference freaked me out. Taht side of the family is buried about an hour away- so I went down, family agian. But what do I find my grandfather was a Mason- a 32nd degree, same w/ my uncles. One of their major symbols - the EYE !!
One thing has definitely lead me to another I have been delving into history, geneology, religions- current, pagan, cults, philosophy,folklore anything that can bring what appears to be lots of stings together it form whatever tapestry is makes up.
FolkLore and superstitions have made this quest even more bizzarre.With the EVIL Eye and they numersous other references to sight or vision. But I can't find anything directly linking the strip and the basic Eye concept.
My point to all this rambling. I feel in my heart my cat eye sister was taken specifically due to her eye. Crazy I know. I'm not usually a conspiracy theorist- but unexplained and 'new' occurances are making it hard for me to continue to believe I'm just reading too much. and perhaps it's wishful thinking - but I think she's still alive. I have e-mailed the family giving them permssion to use a picture of my eye in any attempt to reclaim Madeline. I have seen nothing.
Throughout my life I have only been reminded about my eye when someone asks me about it- 'do you see a line?'- No.
I've thought nothing more about it, than DNA gone bad. But now I feel I have been directed by some source to focus on it and how it affects others.What do peole think when they see it- esp those of old faiths and practices ??
I'd like to help with the search for Madeline- I feel akin to her, and perhaps we are.
Waht I am asking is for the picture of my eye be posted aound the world with my Jardine family Motto. if someone has her this may be an effective means of her return. I realize milions and millions of children go missing.But please understand my particular increased particiaption in this search. I 've been told more than a few times my eye 'creeps' someone out- It is more apparent when I am Not smiling- and acts as a visual exclamation point when I'm angry.
I'll probably regret this- but I hope bloggers around the world help post this and we get resolution on this case. My rational mind tells me this is why I've been feeling the way I have for about the last 4 months. I've become a woman possessed with a directive I don't understand.
Any feed back, suggestions, legal guardianships for my commitment papers:) Would be appreciated.
Thanks my new found voice, blogaphere! ( also weird since I've always 'hated ' the computer- it's now become indispensable)
I am noboday and I prefer to stay that way,but if this helps what the hell. I'm also technologically challenged and am unable to insert a photo of my eye- go to Kimmy's Quest on Yahoo 360.I'll e-mail to to the Kos.