I've been a DailyKos serious lurker since early 2004. I find solace in like minds, even though a lot of those minds are getting near to exploding just like mine. I don't write many diaries, although I read as many as possible every day...even those not on the Rec List :-) but I don't comment very often either. The quality of the writing here is so intelligent and thoughtful, I usually feel that I don't have anything to add that could even come close to expressing how I feel. And I have so much to say, I never know where to begin! I do respond to all the calls to action, ever hopeful something will finally make a difference. My friends used to think I was a little nutty....not so much now.
Sigh.....Impeachment....
Like many of you, I was sure it would happen after the Downing St. Memo and then the Abu Graib scandal...but that didn't get them. Surely outing a CIA agent...that's treason, right? I looked forward to Fitzmas just like everyone here, certain that these crooks were going to finally be accountable....Waxman and Conyers, they'll come through, we have the majority now , right? And it goes on and on and the Democrats do nothing. I never, ever thought the day would come when I was not proud to be a Democrat.
Sometimes I think I just can't take it. I even cut down on my blog reading to try to ease the pain. But, I have found a way to express how I feel that I can share with others...especially those in my circle who haven't got a clue, not so much because of apathy, but more because they are too busy living their lives and only see the surface on the nightly news, if that. I send these expressions to them and they write back, asking questions. A good start.
I am the mother of two sons in their twenties. My oldest son is a poet and songwriter. Back in 2005, he came home for a month after a rough break up and wrote and recorded about 20 songs....twenty pieces of poetry to music. Using a 4 track and playing his instruments down in my basement every day. He made a demo, gave them out to friends and then got on with his life. The songs for the most part were forgotten. Except here, in my heart and in my head. I listen. Images.....I see images. The same images that we see on these Internets. The ones that haunt us as well as hearten us. They dance in and out of my head to a music that seems to be ever present...mostly his music. I know when he wrote those songs he had no idea I would use them this way. But they seem very fitting. I'm not a great writer, but I am an artist and I have to express the way I feel in a different way.
Here is my way....
On Impeachment..." Can't believe your luck"....
On Accountability...."Subtle Hand Duplicity"
On Climate Crisis and my hero, Al Gore..."All Fiction Aside"
And of course, a nice snarky piece on Bombing Iran called "Emergency!"
I know I spent way too much time making these, but it is cathartic for me and it helps. I guess I will continue to do it until there is a reason not to....or until I run out of songs.
If you like any of these, I'd appreciate a rating over at You Tube. ( Mostly so I can send a link to my son and say " Look how many people like your songs!....always the mother.)
If you made it this far, thanks for watching and listening.
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