What more can I say here? I give up. I gave it all a shot but for some reason things are becoming exactly as I had abhored in the first place instead of improving or staying well. Can things change? Sure why not, but I don't expect them to nor do I foresee it. At least they never seem to with me, hell usually things just worsen. So yeah, I bid adieu to everyone for the happy memories and yeah... have a happy holiday (surely Bill O' will be mad but fuck him).
Don't ask why, don't come to conclusions based on nothing, don't speculate on what little you could find, don't assume it even has to make sense, don't bother as it's none of your business. In fact, does it even matter? It's not like I'm a high profile chum here; only in two topics here do I even regularly rear my ugly face in, and both are more social forums than anything.
Just let it go quietly into the sunset with business continuing as usual; the way it's supposed to go. And this concludes the obligatory third paragraph.
Addendum: If things were to improve I'll be back. I assume all things go through their peaks and valleys anyway so no telling where things are relative to the future scenery. Till then, probably best I stay clear of everyone's business, especially those who don't need me around.
Second edit: Fine, you want to know what's up? Well not saying it explicit but I'll give you a clue. Take it as is or deal with it, not saying any further: when the moods strike, things differ. The moods struck as they have for years. Okay? Anything more is too personal and rather not go there.