It's bitter, mean-spirited and apparently, The American Way ™.....and "pooties" make people click diaries which supports my argument.......
((This diary is going to ramble, it's early in the morning and I just read about Maine and I'm not happy.))
My beloved Granny died back in August (if I recall correctly, she died on BilliPM's birthday) but for 7 weeks prior to that, my sister and I provided Granny 24/7 care. The first 5 of those weeks, things were not too bad. Granny was still able to do some things for herself and she had me carry her to the grocery store every weekend. She baked some final cobblers and other final dishes (cooking for her family was one of her deepest pleasures). She really was dying though and part of that process included some dimentia and that was so hard to deal with!
When Granny got delusional, which wasn't all that often, she had one overwhelming delusion. She was terrified of the "men who come from the government to kill elderly people". She could see them out in her yard and she was utterly convinced that that was what was happening, men from the government were coming to kill her, NOT that she was just dying. It was not only sad, it was baffling and it hurt my heart so much to see my Granny suffering so much with that idea. Finally, Granny took to her bed. She had two weeks left.
There she was, lying in her deathbed, still fighting to live when I had one moment to myself, I turned on the tv. TV had not been turned on in over a month. Newspapers had not been read in over a month. I had not been online in over a month, I had no idea what meme was out there so imagine my horror when I first heard about......"death panels" and "pull the plug on granny". My Granny's DELUSION had somehow morphed into a disgusting, terrifying, anti-healthcare reform MEME!
Granny passed away, my heart, so broken and bruised suffers still for this loss. I always will. In the days immediatly after her funeral, I sought help with my overwhelming grief. I relayed the story of Granny's delusion vs death panel meme to this councillor when she told me something I'll never forget (and is part of why I'm writing this diary). She told me that that delusion is extremely common (if not in particular details, more in general) among elderly people there at the end.
See that? The delusion that "someone", possibly from "the government", is coming to murder you is VERY COMMON among ELDERLY PEOPLE AT THE END OF THIER LIVES. News to me, perhaps news to you.......not at all news to the slime that put that "death panel" meme out there. Not news to some worm who would use that common, heart-breaking delusion to further a heartless, money first ideology.
Now, this morning I see that the fine people of Maine decided that they just do not want 2% of thier citizenry to have the same rights as the other 98%. Somehow a law passed in the legislature(elected by the people to represent the people), signed by the Govenor(elected by the people to govern in the name of the people) wasn't good enough and had to be shit on. But.....did you read the way the referendum was written? Did you read the way Prop 8 in California was written? did you notice they were written in a style just one step shy of Shakesperean (Elizabethan) English? Did you notice how deliberatly fucking confusing the things were?!? DID YOU FUCKING NOTICE YOU REALLY COULD NOT BE SURE IF YOU WERE VOTING FOR OR AGAINST MARRIAGE EQUALITY?!?!?!?
They do that deliberatly. THEY they they! The forces of evil. The forces of facsim. The dirty fucking narrowminded bigots. They can't come clean on ANYTHING. They hate healthcare reform because it MIGHT mean the earn one measly penny less than they might have earned by being extra dirty. They hate clean energy for the same reason. They hate marriage equality because that would mean that another 5% of the population gets those 1,138 codified "rights". so the prey on the dim-witted, the low-information voters, the narrowminded. They play to the lowest common denominator. They speak directly to the trash and tell the trash "hey, YOU are special! YOU are the REAL AMERICA! YOU are alllllllll that matters" when in reality, trash dont mean shit, except that they got too much credit, got too fat, made more babies, smoked more cigarettes.
Ken Kesey said "In any given situation, there are more dumb people than there are smart people. We aint many." The evil ones are 90% ignorant pukes and 10% evil geniuses. Evil, manipulative, souless liars. I'm sick of this shit. Really I am. I'm sick of the fucking idea that its just peachy keen to "vote" on whether or not I deserve access to the same fucking inalienable rights as all other human beings.
you know what? I'm fucking tired of being surrounded by dumb mutherfuckers who can't detect how chronically they are being manipulated. Tired of being surrounded by ignorant jerks who revel in, glorify, exhult thier ignorance.
Right now, this moment in time, I'll say it......
I fucking hate this goddamn country.