It’s been a pleasure to meet you all and read your diaries and comment on some of yours. And if it happened that I had hurt someone’s feelings or offended someone at all, then please accept my apology and forgive my flaws. I may have not been clear in some cases or may have not been correct at all but what can you say and what can you do with a loaded brain and busy soul. I hope that you would not mind dealing with such a creature and I did not bother you at all.
It’s been 12 years since I have come to the United States pursuing a dream and self-esteem. Although I was not able to fulfill my dream but was able to achieve self-esteem. Well if you are interested to read more then follow me after the fold, if not, then thank you for reading this part though.
During the last 12 years of my life in US, I have seen nothing but friendly people and heartfelt feelings from all those whom I came across. I can not assume that those people were all liberal and democrats but I am sure they were all Americans and have resided in my left part of my heart.
It was a long journey with lots of challenges but I was not alone there or by my soul. You were with me supporting every step and assuring that the following one will be just like the rest. Coming to US by my self was not easy, nor was being a student or even being here at all. It took us a while to get adjusted to each other style.
While recalling the past is fun for fact, but I have to tell you that reading your diaries often put me in a retrieval mode of all the places that I have been to and beautiful faces that I have seen before. Some of your words told my story and many times I found my thoughts between your lines, which used to make me always humming the following song every time I get into that recalling mode:
I am very thankful to you for having me one of your members and thankful to all the great writers here. I don’t want to name names then forget others and seem to be ungrateful to some names among the others. Although, there is one particular name that I have to mention which if it was not him I would have no clue about this site or think that such a great place even exist. That name is Keith Olbermann. I was told that the truth can not be said and the media is carefully and secretly censored, something that I believed until I saw, heard and read about Mr. Olbermann. Every rule has an exception and the exception here is Keith Olbermann. This will lead me to thank the founder and creator of this site Mr. Kos who initiated such a great community where you can come and you might be down and desperate but you will find all kinds of help and support and even a bunch of good thoughts.
I have been saying good bye to every precious heart I came across and every living tree I drove by and you are my last place to stop by before I head to the war zone. I am not going to be bullet proofed, nor am going to be transported by armored vehicle. Therefore I am preparing my self to the worst scenarios that I may come through. It could be a sniper bullet or could be a suicide bomb. It could be kidnapping and or even worst than that, it could be torture and rape but I am not ready for that. I have prepared my self to die and be buried under ground but have not prepared my mind to face more than that. I will be going with half part of my heart and will be leaving the other part behind my mom who is buried in your graveyard pay her a visit every time you get the chance if it happened and I did not come back.
Thanksgiving will come while I am away from this site, so I would like to say that I am very thankful to have you part of my life, part of my heart and part of mind. And if you wanted to know to which front am I heading to, then I will say that we are having two fronts and it should be either or, but I will not leave you to guess that and will tell you that I am heading to Iraq and my name is Baghdad:
Thank you for reading and best regards, love you all from the bottom of my heart