I wrote on DKos a while back posts questioning the Christian faith and whether I was a Christian. After much reflection, approximately 2 months ago, I came to a decision about where I am spiritually, the type of life I want to live, and what I believe,...
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I became a Christian when I was a sophomore in undergraduate school. I practiced my faith in every area of my life as best as I was able. Approximately 5 years or so ago, I stopped practicing my faith.
I felt mistreated by Christians at churches. I should not have stopped practicing my faith simply because of some bad experiences. I stopped making any attempt at living a Christian life. However, my wife only
knew me as a devout Christian. 4 Separated disks brought about frequent and debilitating migraines which made it difficult for me to be successful at work and at school (yes despite my award and my degrees). I became depressed. Out of this depression, I made some bad choices. I looked at things online I should not have and a couple of times went to a strip club. I should not have done these things. As a result my wife left me. The last 7 months or so have been difficult ones.
I stopped doing those things that I knew were wrong. Still, I was unsure if I really was a Christian or if I wanted to pursue Buddism ...My spiritual life was still up and down. I could not decide if I wanted to be a Christian and live a Christian life.
A little over two months ago, I finally made a decision: I would commit to Christ and live the Christian life even if Heather divorced me. Heather has already requested a divorce. So, doing this will not win her back. And the people we both knew won't associate with me or have any contact with me and this will not change their mind. Since I publicly questioned my faith on this blog, I felt it was necessary to publicly avow my faith. Notice that this post is simply about my faith; it says nothing whatsoever about my political views.