I am tired of all the bullshit and hate.
For quite some time I have wished I was back in New Zealand.
And I know some people are going to say, then go the fuck back there... I only wish I could. My husband and child are American... so here we stay.
Don't accuse me of being anti-american. Im not. I am anti-bullshit.
I arrived here in late 1999. The first person I heard on radio was Rush Limbaugh. I can't remember what he was going on about but no doubt it was Clinton, as it was coming to the end of his Presidency.
So the first thing I heard on American radio was hate. And it pretty much hasn't stopped. I came from a small town on the south island of New Zealand to Biloxi Mississppi, which I quickly found myself embroiled in the confederacy flag battle that was raging on down there.
Blacks against the Whites. It was pretty ugly. At one demostration an old white guy turned up with his gun and a noose and threatened to shoot and lynch the blacks and the white traiters. That was my introduction to the Hate.
I was shocked. This isn't what I saw on tv. Even though I learnt about Jim Crow and slavery in high school back in New Zealand, it was assumed it was all over. Boy, was I wrong.
And all my other experiences since then has only confirmed it.
And it has gotten worse. Now its only only hate against anyone who isn't white. Its hatred towards liberals, gays, atheists ( I was spat on, on a bus for reading the God delusion), females, disabled people, and I could go on and on.
Yes I know, not everybody hates. But some days Its hard to believe it.
And the political atmosphere has gotten even worse than it was during the Clinton years. I am sure a lot of it has to do with Obama being the first African American President but not all of it.
Gays are being attacked, not just physically, but emotionally. Their dignity has been stripped away. If I , from another country, can come over and marry, why can't they??? Human happiness is a basic human right... and marriage is a CIVIL and human right. The Gay community is being used as a political football to scare religious folks into voting republican. The Prop 8 debacle just made me sick. All the hatred in those ads that aired in California was disgusting... and some of them were b aimed at certain racial groups to play on some unspoken fears. Afterwards some of these groups were unfairly blamed by others.. I don't blame them... I blame the assholes who funded those ads.. I blame the bigots who targeted the Gay Community, not just because they hate them (fear them) but because it was political gold.
Hate is a very potent tool that republicans have used to great success. I have even found myself hating them. But what good does that do? Does that make me the same as them? I don't know. What I do know is, is that i did not used to be like this in New Zealand. I find myself getting angry far to quick now. And too often at people here. Which is inexcusable.
The tragic events back in my hometown of Greymouth, where the 29 miners died, two of whom I knew, and the recent quake in Christchurch, where at least 166 people have died, has made me realise, that I am tired of the bullshit and the hatred in this country.
The only thing I can really do about it, is not to give in too it. Or at least try.
Life is too short and precious to waste it being angry and hating people. Instead of that, action is needed to stop the bad things, the corruption and the just plain evil things that are going on.
This rant probably makes no sense at all. It seems to me to be just a collection of random mutterings.
But oh well, its made me feel a bit better. And no, I don't hate America... I just wish it could be better and that people stopped hating each other so much.
Updated by GlowNZ at Thu Mar 10, 2011, 10:03:23 PM
Feel free to flame me or ignore this diary. It was mostly about getting things out.
Updated by GlowNZ at Thu Mar 10, 2011, 10:12:01 PM
hehe... always wanted to include pie as a poll option :)
Updated by GlowNZ at Thu Mar 10, 2011, 10:32:15 PM
Oh I forgot to add... hatred towards unions and union workers... how on earth could I forget! People who just don't want to be ripped off by their employers and be part of an organisation that helps protect them...and they get VILIFIED by baggers and republicans..... god almighty!