Today I am leaving my partner. He is a brilliant progressive guy, who simply can't accept that his derailing and gas-lighting are harmful. He'll spend years standing up to the man, but can't get it into his head that it is for the women also.
As a daughter of the religious right, I am still, even at 45, easily manipulated.
I haven't written a second diary on Kos because after the first one, my partner got mad because I spent the day answering comments. Not sure why that is a reason to harm someone, but the shortcoming in emotional abusers' thought process seems to be that the partner owes them everything, including their soul. Today, I reclaimed my soul.
What is emotional abuse?
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If your spirit is dying in your very own home, day by day, and you can't leave due to finances, children, being unsure of yourself, or any other reason, please continue searching for yourself. Even unfixable circumstances can change on a dime.
I'm in a foreign country, with a visa tied to my partner. I found a way to work around it. The fix isn't always easy. It may take some time. But you do not have to live like that.
2:10 PM PT: Wow. Thanks so much, everyone for so much caring support! Until today I felt so alone and scared. Your encouragement and validation means more than I can express. While I am still under the same roof I can't express my feelings as or when i would like, but you left no question about whether someone has my back. There is now a foundation under me, although i have been away for awhile. I'm so very grateful for all the advice and concern and well wishes. This will have a happy ending!!