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The idea behind a roll call is primarily for a check-in. How are you doing, in other words, and what's new with you?

But this time around I'd also like to ask for as much medical detail as you feel comfortable sharing about your diagnosis and treatment. I'm not too squeamish, though some of us might be.

On top of that, I'd like to ask a couple of other nosy questions: what has changed most for you, both positively and negatively, post-diagnosis?

I realize as I write that all this is phrased in such a way as to emphasize the MNCCers here who have cancer, not the caregivers. But I can imagine answers for these questions that would parallel those with cancer, so please don't hold back if you are a caregiver. And besides, you can always be creative with your response.

I'll start.

I was diagnosed with grade 2 endometrial adenocarcinoma three years ago next week, and I had major surgery (hysterectomy and bilateral oopherectomy-salpingectomy) shortly thereafter. [Edit: During surgery, several pelvic and para-aortic lymph nodes came back malignant, which meant the cancer was at a Stage IIIC2, or just shy of Stage IV.] Three weeks post-surgery I started six rounds of chemotherapy (doxorubicin and cisplatin) which caused me to lose my hair, endure a bout of neutropenia, and suffer peripheral neuropathy, but didn't apparently have any effect on the cancer. A CT scan in August of 2011 showed lung mets, a deeply shocking and frightening development. Immediately thereafter I embarked on an exploration of complimentary treatments, including Ayurveda, acupuncture, meditation, visualization, yoga, breathing, meditation, singing, and a variety of dietary changes. All these remedies, along with a hefty dose of Megace, an artificial progesterone, per my oncologist's recommendation, brought me to NED (no evidence of disease) status by June of 2012. In retrospect, that seems like a very quick response. At the time, those nine months seemed like forever. I've remained in remission since, and I hope to remain there for a very, very long time.

I'd say there is one major physical change that has affected every aspect of my life post-cancer: fatigue. ZenTrainer mentioned how it impacts her life in a MNCC diary last week; most of what she wrote sounds painfully familiar. So most days I try to get in a good nap, and when I do I feel better, though never fully energetic. I do miss my old self, but I also recognize that I never used to know when to quit.

Apparently fatigue is the number-one complaint of cancer survivors, which if it doesn't make me feel better--all those other people suffering through this too?!--at least makes me feel that it's a real consequence.

EDIT: I would like to quote extensively from the NCCN (National Comprehensive Cancer Network) Guidelines on Cancer-Related Fatigue, but their website is rather fierce with their objections to any reprinting. Suffice it to say by way of introduction that they think the problem is a real one for patients, the most troubling of all cancer’s effects, and that doctors have a responsibility to respond with support.

It is a wee bit difficult to access their website, but much of the content (even for providers) is free. I did not register as a provider but as a cancer survivor, and I still can view some of the clinicians’ resources.

So to start, go to the NCCN home page, NCCN.org, and sign up for a free account. Once you do that, you can go to the first tab, NCCN Guidelines, and pull down the menu. Click on the NCCN Guidelines for Supportive Care, and then you’ll see the option for Cancer-Related Fatigue.

(Of course, you can surf the site for other resources, but as someone who read A LOT about her cancer when I was first diagnosed, let me tell you it’s something to be approached with caution. It’s akin to politics and sausage-making, if you catch my drift.)

I have experienced one major emotional difference, or so I would say myself; my family might disagree. I feel less driven by perfectionism. At this point, I'm lucky to get things done at all, and if I fussed as I used to do over the lack of perfection in the finished product, I truly would do nothing at all. That aspect of my former self I do not miss.

The other major circumstantial change is that I am not working for pay, at least not right now. I lost my job shortly after my diagnosis, and that was not an easy matter back then: it presented just as many difficulties (less money) as advantages (more time). I DO NOT KNOW how single people, or those who are the sole supporters of their families, survive a serious cancer diagnosis without enormous financial strain; it is no picnic to be very sick and to have no safety net. It's hard enough for people who do have family support (which is nothing to take for granted); again, one of the major problems that most cancer survivors face is financial hardship. Loss of income, loss of benefits, plus increased medical costs--that's a recipe for catastrophe for almost everyone.

It's been liberating, in a sense, as I have been able to focus on regaining my health and supporting my younger daughter, who has had many troubles of her own these past few years. But it's also been destabilizing to lose, or at least recast, my professional identity yet again. I'd been one of those people on their fifth or sixth act already, though, so I guess this is not really new. And it's also resulted in greater pressure on my husband to be nearly the sole provider now instead of one of the co-earners.

That's my story in brief. Please feel free to share with the rest of us how you are doing and what are the biggest changes you've had to handle so far.

Or, if you prefer, treat this as an open thread. Nothing is off-limits here when it concerns your health, your sanity, your hopes and fears.

Monday Night Cancer Club is a Daily Kos group focused on dealing with cancer, primarily for cancer survivors and caregivers, though clinicians, researchers, and others with a special interest are also welcome. Volunteer diarists post Monday evenings between 7-8 PM ET on topics related to living with cancer, which is very broadly defined to include physical, spiritual, emotional and cognitive aspects. Mindful of the controversies endemic to cancer prevention and treatment, we ask that both diarists and commenters keep an open mind regarding strategies for surviving cancer, whether based in traditional, Eastern, Western, allopathic or other medical practices. This is a club no one wants to join, in truth, and compassion will help us make it through the challenge together.
 

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  •  Lots of announcements forthcoming from me (22+ / 0-)

    tonight, the first being that I'm hoping to add a couple of useful links to the diary. More soon, in other words.

    The second is that on Monday nights between now and early May, I could be arriving to tend the diary on the late side; I'm providing transportation for my daughter to attend a night class at one of the local universities and it ends at 7:00. With luck I'll get back here promptly, but some nights I will schedule a diary to post and then get back to tend it ASAP.

    Others to follow; I'm already late to post tonight. Sorry!

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    by peregrine kate on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 05:08:45 PM PST

  •  One year cancer free! (15+ / 0-)

    Hey Monday night CC - January 10th was my one year anniversary.

    All free and clear, and contemplating summiting Mt. Washington (6,288') with the Boy Scouts this spring.

    I prefer to remain an enigma.

    by TriSec on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 06:22:36 PM PST

    •  And after actually reading the diary... (11+ / 0-)

      Yes, I'd agree.  Fatigue is my number one lingering side effect.  I'm pretty good most days...but I still work 2 jobs.  after pulliing a shift at job #2 (on my feet), I still really feel it.  I also have trouble climbing stairs - I get winded easily and have to stop and rest.

      My CIPN has mostly receded, but I find I still have trouble with buttons.  

      To recap my story, on a Monday morning two Junes ago now, I awoke with some Right lower quadrant pain.  I'm an EMT and first responder, so I could guess what it was.

      I went to my doctor that afternoon, then the ER for a CAT Scan, then admitted for emergency surgery.  Whilst removing my appendix, they found Stage III colon cancer.

      I did six months with Oxalaplatin (AKA "Satan's Drool"), had anaphalaxis after treatment #9, and literally limped home.  

      What has truly changed?  Faith.  Aside from my closest friends, you are all the first to know; I found Allah and became Muslim during the ordeal.  But I'm still working that out.  I used to be Catholic, but the church-sex scandal pretty much cured me of that; I've been rudderless in that regard for the better part of a decade.

      Anyway...I'm in fine fettle this evening; Scouting remains my anchor like it has most of my life, and I'm glad I'm around to enjoy said life.   Looking forward to another camping trip this weekend.  (Nobscot Scout Reservation, Sudbury, MA)

      I prefer to remain an enigma.

      by TriSec on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 06:31:15 PM PST

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    •  Congratulations, TriSec! Great news! (10+ / 0-)

      I seem to recall you had a scan recently; I'm so glad you had good results! Thanks for sharing them with us.

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      by peregrine kate on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 06:46:45 PM PST

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  •  I'm here! (14+ / 0-)

    PK knows my story, and many of the regulars as well. It's been 10 cancer-free years. I was never diagnosed with cancer, and I never went to the doctor until I could barely walk. Colon resection removed a big old tumor, seven months of chemo made sure they "got everything".
    It was PK's story that caught my eye a few years ago. I am filled with admiration for her courage and for the grit and determination that I see in her and in so many of the folks who keep in touch here. I hope I can offer support, and I am thankful for the many kindnesses shown here. Keep up the good work! Love to all here.

  •  I am going to check in and then check right back (11+ / 0-)

    out.

    My blood work is good, my ultrasounds are good.

    My energy level is at an all time low as is my immune system.

    I look forward to hearing others check in and seeing how everyone is.

    Tracy B Ann - technically that is my signature. If I had Bill Gates money, I'd buy Detroit.

    by ZenTrainer on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 06:55:17 PM PST

  •  Sydneyluv here. (14+ / 0-)

    It's still hard for me to identify as a cancer survivor, as someone who's had breast cancer.  Last April I was diagnosed with Stage 1 Breast Cancer.  After my lumpectomy and short term radiation therapy, I'm doing well. I'm on anti-hormone drug, Arimidex, and doing quite well on that.  I'm still working full time as a psychotherapist and that was quite challenging in the midst of my treatment, especially with the fatigue that followed the radiation.  I'm old enough to retire (age 71) but not ready to yet.

    I was so glad to find this group after my diagnosis. You all lifted my spirits. Thanks.

    The 'shift' is hitting the fan.

    by sydneyluv on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 06:55:59 PM PST

  •  All right, I have added the NCCN info I promised (9+ / 0-)

    to the body of the diary. Now, what was the other item I wanted to add? Hmmmmm....

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    by peregrine kate on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 07:33:56 PM PST

  •  WisePiper here. (12+ / 0-)

    As I've mentioned a couple times here at the GOS, I was diagnosed with stage 3 lung cancer in November 2012. They found a tumor that totally occluded the left bronchus, resulting in a collapsed lung and multiple pneumonias. I also had a few lymph nodes that "lit up" on the PET scan, though biopsies were negative there.

    My treatment consisted of six weeks of daily radiation (weekends off), but no chemo. Nine months post-radiation, my CT scan from two weeks ago revealed the tumor is almost gone - less than 1 cm diameter. My radiation oncologist posits that the degree of tumor reduction over that period of time was remarkably greater than he had anticipated. (During treatment I self-administered a few drops of cold brewed THC tincture under my tongue every morning. I've no idea whether this contributed to my fast healing.)

    Polling my various doctors, and pressing them not to sugar coat it, the consensus seems to be that there's at least an 80% probability the cancer will reappear, most likely in my lungs, brain or bones. (Due to non-healing of my T-6 vertebra, which I fractured last March during radiation treatment, and due to generalized back pain in the area near that vertebra, I'm scheduled to undergo a test next week to determine if indeed a malignancy exists in my bone tissue. Will also be doing a bone density test to determine degree of osteoporosis.)

    All in all, I'm feeling remarkably well, though as pk discussed, fatigue has been a significant post-treatment condition.

    The greatest change I've experienced in my life while grappling with this disease has been a heightened sensitivity to those little moments of everyday existence in which I recognize (and strive to return) affirmations of love and respect from my family and friends. Those gestures of caring and appreciation had always been extended - what's changed is that my radar to detect them has been fine tuned. What a glorious experience to feel so deeply the love I'd previously ignored or dismissed.

    So, this is where I'm at - living life more fully, and accepting with equanimity the near inevitability of a premature death.

    Cheers and best wishes to all my fellow survivors of this grand and fascinating journey.

    In 2006 Obama explicitly and definitively ruled out a 2008 run for president and declared he would remain in the senate until his term expired in 2010. Can we please stop the "Warren won't run" bullshit?

    by WisePiper on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 08:38:40 PM PST

    •  Thank you for sharing your situation, WisePiper. (10+ / 0-)

      I appreciate your mention of a "heightened sensitivity to those little moments of everyday existence..." though I think I don't live in that same exalted space at this time. Maybe I never did; when I was dealing with the lung metastases I was pretty  distressed by the thoughts of what I might miss.
      Now, of course, I could then--and still might--be hit by a bus, as the saying goes, and so all my struggles would be for naught at least in terms of long-term survival. But I guess I do have a little more willingness to be in the present, to not run away from emotional difficulties, than I once did. It's an incremental process for me at best.
      I have three women with Stage IV lung cancer in my support group. Their responses and prognoses are quite varied, but it appears that one of them is on track to survive for a long time. She had chemo that initially seemed to be useless--and then somehow the tumor, which had wrapped itself around her spine and spinal cord, simply stopped growing. It still shows on her scans, but it has remained unchanged for three years, IIRC. So much of cancer and our individual body's response to it remains a mystery.
      Whether you have one more day or ten more years, WisePiper, may you enjoy every moment of love you encounter and share. I hope you'll come visit the MNCC again.

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      by peregrine kate on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 08:55:28 PM PST

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  •  I'm so glad to hear from all of you! (7+ / 0-)

    Tracy B Ann - technically that is my signature. If I had Bill Gates money, I'd buy Detroit.

    by ZenTrainer on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 08:54:24 PM PST

  •  This is a great service to the community, pk (8+ / 0-)

    Thanks for providing it.

  •  February 11 (7+ / 0-)

    will be the 3rd anniversary of my thyroid surgery. I was lucky it was caught early and it was the 'good' cancer so no chemo or radiation necessary. I'm on thyroid med now and after fits and starts my numbers are in the good range! And still the doctor wants to take me off that medication because she doesn't believe in it. Well, I'm ignoring her.
    Nothing life changing has happened, but many little annoying things to make me realize,daily, that my life has indeed changed.
     I didn't lose my voice, but it has changed were I can no longer hold a tone or can get any volume to work.
    I gained weight! Something I never had to watch, but now I do.
    I lost a lot of hair! I had lots and lots of it, but not anymore and if I keep losing much more  I will have to check into wigs.
    My immune system sucks! Seems like I'm catching everything that goes around now. Hardly ever got a cold, but nowadays as soon as it gets cold I get sick.
    My body has trouble absorbing calcium. That is the biggest concern I have right now. My teeth falling apart and my bones starting to show weak spots.

    It's not one thing it's another! :)

    El pueblo unido jamás será vencido. The people united will never be defeated

    by mint julep on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 09:31:28 PM PST

  •  I'll save that other addition for another time. (5+ / 0-)

    But it's waaaaay past my bedtime and I must pack it in.
    Any takers for a MNCC diary sometime soon? You know we all love to read different contributors. :) Just let me know. Thanks in advance, and happy week to all.

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    by peregrine kate on Mon Jan 13, 2014 at 09:55:46 PM PST

  •  I havn't noticed this group before and am (8+ / 0-)

    truly interested in all your experiences.  So much of what you say sounds so familiar to me.

    I was diagnosed with stage 3 ovarian cancer a year ago November. I had been experiencing various types of abdominal pain which resulted in numerous tests, none of which resulted in a diagnosis, but which led to a surgery to determine if what seemed to be a colon blockage was cancer. This surgery revealed widespread ovarian cancer. Because it was impossible to get a gyneological surgeon to come in to remove the cancers, it was decided to delay removing the cancers until after shrinking them with chemotherapy. I think it was the right decision.

    Three weeks after the surgery I started chemot using a combination of cisplatin and a version of taxol. A CT scan after three cycles showed that while the wide- spread "seed" tumors in the abdominal area were much reduced in number,  one significant tumor had actually grown very slightly. At that point I had the cytoreduction (or debulking) surgery with what my surgeon termed "optimal" reslts and three weeks later started chemotherapy with doxilrubicin. After six cycles I reached full remission with no signs of cancer. I have been five months NED.

    Of course, those diagnosed with late state ovarian cancer - as I was-  have an 80% chance of recurrence within 3 months to three years, so I take each day as it comes and try not to worry - just be grateful for the extra time my excellent doctors were able to give me, whether it will be a year or twenty years.  At this point, my life is back to normal and I will enjoy that normalcy to the fullest.

    The point of all this detail is to reassure those of you who are struggling that it can get better.  Also, those who are contemplating chemo - it isn't allways that bad. I experienced some annoyances - minor mucositius while being treated with doxil, for instances, hair loss and the like - but overall, it didn' effect the quality of my life too severely - and I'm back where I was before the cancer thanks to the skill of my surgeon and to the oncologist who directed my chemo. You can't generalize from anyone elses experience, the chemo drugs are varried and they all seem to affect diferent individuals in different ways, but don't reject chemotherapy out of hand.

    •  {{{{{Thisbe}}}}} (3+ / 0-)
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      Glad you found us; sorry you have occasion to do so. Also glad that you are doing so well.

      It is possible to keep going even with an advanced dx of ovarian cancer. I know someone who was diagnosed over three years ago when her ovary ruptured; she had cancer throughout her abdomen when they opened her up for emergency surgery. But so far so good. Come to think of it, I know another woman in similar circumstances, though not with as dramatic a start, and a couple of others with more than ten years of survival even after a Stage III dx. So comparatively long-term survival is not out of the question.

      I remember when I was first diagnosed looking over and over again for answers. When? What? How long? How do you know? And over and over again learning there weren't any, really, at least nothing definitive. Coming to terms with radical uncertainty has been challenging to me. I appreciate your equanimity in the face of the unknown.

      I also agree with you about chemo effects. I had a number of complications, as I mention in my diary, and in the end it didn't work--but it was tolerable, and apart from the few days afterwards it didn't affect my daily routine. But as you say, YMMV (a perfect example of that saying). It's impossible to know in advance.

      Hope you come by the MNCC again, any time.

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      by peregrine kate on Tue Jan 14, 2014 at 11:26:11 AM PST

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  •  Lifting (8+ / 0-)

    What's  changed. I have to write about what has changed for me. I cannot fully understand all that has changed for him. I can be at his side always.

    So for me the two most significant things that have changed since we got the diagnosis are first relaxing a little into a confidence that we have years before us.

    The other is something that probably encompasses much more. I lft the heavy stuff now as often as I can. My husband has spine mets and had damge to some vertebra prior to treatment. I try to be realistic and not overdo my worry or caution.

  •  late as usual! (3+ / 0-)

    I'm still kicking. Was dx'd w stage 3 BC about 3.5 years ago - it was inoperable and they wanted to do chemo to shrink it but I declined.  Have been using a wide array of alternative therapies since then.   Lately big on herbal stuff which shall remain nameless.  It's time for another pet scan. I seem to be holding my own rather well, considering.

    Yes to fatigue!

    I want to be fully cured so I can show my allopathic doctors another way...  but still playing the cancer card to great effect. Lol

    Sorry I keep missing ya'll on Monday nights - I'm usually asleep pretty early.

    Look deep into nature, and you will understand everything better. Albert Einstein

    by Carol in San Antonio on Tue Jan 14, 2014 at 08:15:02 AM PST

    •  {{{{{CiSA}}}}} You go, girl! (2+ / 0-)
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      I am delighted that you are doing well. It's all relative after a point, no?
      Funny that you acknowledge using the cancer card. Sometimes it only makes sense. We did here the other day--our furnace wasn't working, and we would have had to wait nearly a week for service otherwise. I don't regret pulling that kind of rank on occasion; it's also for my daughter at home, who remains very physically vulnerable.
      Good on you for getting to bed early. My Ayurvedist keeps telling me how much better I'd feel if I went to bed at ten. Ha! But do I listen? Noooooo. I probably should try it one of these days or weeks.
      We're often here for a bit into Tuesday, as you see, so please don't hesitate to chime in.

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      by peregrine kate on Tue Jan 14, 2014 at 11:32:33 AM PST

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  •  Okay here goes .... ALL the Details (2+ / 0-)
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    first the facts:

    February 6, 2012 found shadow on my left upper lung lobe on chest x-ray.  Finally received diagnosis in April after "issues" complicated the process of arriving at a diagnosis and clinical staging.  

    Diagnosed April 2012  with Stage IIIA Non-small cell squamous cell carcinoma of the left upper lung lobe.

    Began 3 cycles of neoadjuvent chemotherapy using Cisplatin and Gemcitobine (Gemzar).  May 2012, ex-wife and I remarried.  Chemo completed June 2012, PET Scan radiologist remarked he was surprised, he had to look really hard to find any traces of tumor.  

    Scheduled for surgery July 2012, had to be cancelled when I came down with pneumonia (in the good-right lung) 3 days before surgery.

    Surgery rescheduled  a couple of times more "medical issues" aka complications prevented surgery until February 2013.

    Had whole left lung removed. pathology was very favorable.  Could not find anything except for scar tissue where the tumor had been.

    Caught pneumonia again in May 2013, this time spent 7 days in ICU. YIKES! Only have one lung now so scary times.

    October 2013, daughter got married; I got to walk her down the aisle....VERY  happy pops for sure.

    Moved from California to Arkansas 2 days after the wedding.

    Now for the living stuff.

    Over the past 18 months (Since completing chemo) my body's immune system is re-learning how to protect me from evil doers.  I have had 2 head colds the most recent one last week.  I am making progress since now I don't end up in ICU for 7 days or end up taking high dosages of steroids (Prednisone).  

    My germ fighters are learning how to protect me and not try to kill me at the same time!! YEAH TEAM!
    At first it did not react at all (first pneumonia) then it over reacted (Second pneumonia and a head cold I had in August).  

    Progress!! !

    There are many adjustments to life we have to make I found out.  I was a super active Type A workaholic. I LOVED working 10 hour days 5-6 days per week and come summer time and emergency response season? 16 hour days for weeks at a time.  I loved it.  I now realize all that type A action was probably destroying my body at the cellular level, one cell at a time.  

    Heck I had been an emergency response adrenaline junky for much of my adult life since my first thrills in 1976.  Now I am retired.  so far my lung cancer has not returned.  I know what the National Cancer Institute says are the probabilities of recurrence over 1 year, 5 years, 10 years.  I have decided not to dwell on those numbers, nor to let them drive me to be "urgent all the time" about how I live my life.  Just a choice I have made, that suits me best.  

    I am retired now, my body will no longer allow me to work, but that is okay. I have re-discovered old thrills.

    There is nothing like waking up in the morning and seeing a Pileated Woodpecker 5 feet from your front window.  Or 3-5 crows walking on your lawn or any of 22 separate species of birds I have seen at my feeders so far this month.  And when it snows? wow a veritable feeding frenzy out there. LOL  

    Peace to each and everyone, I look forward to our conversations this year.  and to those that are newer to our discussions:

     welcome to the club, none of us ever thought we would belong to.   {{{{EVERYONE}}}}

    hugging is what I do

    Life is not a problem to be solved but an adventure to be experienced.

    by DarkHawk98 on Tue Jan 14, 2014 at 09:38:23 PM PST

    •  Brings tears to my eyes to read this, DH98. (0+ / 0-)

      All of it. What a roller coaster ride!
      I'm so glad you're here in this space. And to see a pileated woodpecker 5 feet away?! I have been known to stop in my tracks to sneak up on a flicker, so I know just what you mean.
      Today is the only day we have.
      Peace and blessings to you, dear quilt brother. And {{{{{DarkHawk98}}}}}

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      by peregrine kate on Wed Jan 15, 2014 at 03:22:39 PM PST

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      •  The Fun Part of it PK (1+ / 0-)
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        If not for that crazy ride of a life the past 2 years, I would not be living so very happily in Arkansas and retired at 59.  Seems like a good trade-off to me even with me still needed supplemental oxygen all the time.

        I see my new oncologist on the 28th.  Next Thursday I get to spend most of my day getting scanned, CT, PET, MRI. I guess they want to see if they give my glowing personality a booster shot eh? LOL

        Life is not a problem to be solved but an adventure to be experienced.

        by DarkHawk98 on Wed Jan 15, 2014 at 08:04:37 PM PST

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