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Andy and I (with officiant) at our wedding in 2008
Andy, (right) me, and my son who found him gone, in happier days.
Bearing in mind that Saturday was the 2nd anniversary of the date my son found my husband deceased, and his body starting to decompose (I was on the other side of the country at the time) and it's been kind of a strange weekend, I offer the words below, because it's where I am now.


Means "beautiful voice" from Greek καλλος (kallos) "beauty" and οψ (ops) "voice". In Greek mythology she was a goddess of epic poetry and eloquence, one of the nine Muses.  

 Join us every Tuesday afternoon at the Daily Kos community political poetry club.

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I am no gifted poet.

I came here a broken woman.

Seeking only to survive,
I had found a love.
Time and circumstances
Nurtured it until
It could grow strong.

In the arms of love,

I looked for companionship
In the years of my aging.
Yet too soon, too soon
Death, in a heartless country
Snatched it away in a breath.

I cry to heaven
But it avails me nothing.
Only the lost cause
Of hopeless tears
In a broken land.


In the heart of the desert,
In the desert of the heart,
For thirst, no water.
For hunger, no food.
For loneliness, only mocking laughter
Echoing off hollow, labyrinthine walls.

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  •  Tip Jar (9+ / 0-)

    What I want to know is, who's going to pay for these crimes against humanity that those b@st@rds are perpetrating against the rest of us?

    by Kit RMP on Tue Jun 10, 2014 at 02:00:19 PM PDT

  •  ((Kit)) (7+ / 0-)

    I'm so sorry hun. I know how much I worried about something like that over the years. I really feel for your loss.

    FloridaSNDad has cerebral palsy, and he has always fallen, a LOT. and I used to have nightmares about coming home from work and finding him dead on the floor after a fall, either bled out or broken something fatal. And he used to stay home alone with the kids, even when they were little, so there could have been an 18 month old Bit there with him alone at the time. For us, that was one of the benefits of home schooling our son when he was 12. At that point Draco was capable of calling 911 or going to a neighbor he knew for help if his dad got hurt.

    "Madness! Total and complete madness! This never would've happened if the humans hadn't started fighting one another!" Londo Mollari

    by FloridaSNMOM on Tue Jun 10, 2014 at 02:34:35 PM PDT

    •  Yours has been a tough row to hoe in so many ways! (3+ / 0-)

      I can't tell you how much I appreciate your sympathy, and know you have mine right back! I admire the way you "hang in there" and "carry on" so much!

      Thanks for coming by and commenting. I feel like this should have been in TGR, almost, except I didn't make it by there until today, (it's still Tuesday here) because last night, I dropped in to a local Scandinavian dance group to connect with the woman who used to be director for the dance troupe Andy used to dance with, who has promised me some videos she has of Andy dancing. Then, I stopped by GEDF's briefly, to visit for a bit and coordinate our outing to Costco that was postponed by his getting sick on the weekend. Then, in the parking lot at Costco, I hear on the radio about the school shooting at Reynolds. It's all just kind of too much at the moment.

      Wouldn't it be nice if all the insanity and cruelty in our sick culture would just stop?

      What I want to know is, who's going to pay for these crimes against humanity that those b@st@rds are perpetrating against the rest of us?

      by Kit RMP on Tue Jun 10, 2014 at 10:19:36 PM PDT

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  •  Your old boy's face is warm and kind. (4+ / 0-)

    You both wear your years well.

    Although he is gone, he is here.
    Inside us, he abides, he rests.

    Outside us, he becomes, he expands.
    Forenoon breeze takes him up.

    His tears blend with yours
    when you wash your face with dew.

    The leaves rattle, hiss and sing to him,
    grown wider than wind, lighter than spider-silk.

    Greet him under your favorite tree
    as he sweeps and spins through the leaves,

    paddling to the edge of the atmosphere,
    pulling up your thoughts to sail into the sun.

    The harvested grain becomes seed, bread and ale.
    May he be all three for you.

    I started with nothing and still have most of it left. - Seasick Steve

    by ruleoflaw on Tue Jun 10, 2014 at 07:18:42 PM PDT

    •  He was warm, and kind. (3+ / 0-)

      And, your poem moves me to tears, yet again. Thank you so much for that, that ability to touch the heart deeply that your poetry has so much of!

      What I want to know is, who's going to pay for these crimes against humanity that those b@st@rds are perpetrating against the rest of us?

      by Kit RMP on Tue Jun 10, 2014 at 10:23:14 PM PDT

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