While reading the Grand Jury testimony it be came apparent that Darren Wilson was emotionally compromised at the time that he shot Mike Brown and was acting outside the training and outside of the law. The Officer that interviewed Wilson at the scene testified this:
"Q And so when you walked up, the best you can recall your words were, what happened? A That's what I asked him, yes, ma'am. Q All right. And as best you recall, what's the first thing he said to you? A He said I had to shoot him. I asked him why? He said he had been walking in the street, I told him to get off the sidewalk, or get on the sidewalk. I said okay. He said well, they told me to fuck off." Source State of Missouri v. Darren Wilson Grand Jury Volume V September 16, 2014 Page 31.
At this point the officer like all humans was filtering his thoughts through his lower Limbic part of his brain that which controls emotions like anger and fear. There is no police training that will enable an officer to avoid this thought processing. Anger is a natural human emotion, as is fear but when coupled with immunity of any subsequent actions taken by an officer unjust things occur. It is usually dismissed as inconsequential (in this case it was deadly). So training would provide that Wilson should have stopped and called in a pedestrian stop and given the nature of the situation knowing that he was looking for suspects as he stated.
Darren Wilson began to fabricate his rationalization for killing Mike Brown
In his mind he knew that he would have to answer for his actions but his words tell us that he was angry because he was told to fuck off. I'm sure Police are told to fuck off more than we'd like to think. I suspect that most of the time it doesn't end up in the person being shot 12 times 2 in the head like a vicious animal attacking. Darren Wilson acted out of malice and contempt from the time he backed up his car and engaged the potty mouth 18 year old. Later on the testimony clearly point out that two supernatural events occurred during the alleged struggle or attack.in the car.
" The gun came out of the holster". "The gun went off". Both of these things happened sequentially , however it is not rocket science to conclude that someone pulled the gun out of the holster. Darren Wilson pulled the gun out, because if Mike Brown had pulled it out of the holster Wilson would have told the first questioning officer. At no time did he tell the officer that Mike Brown upholstered the gun. Secondly shotguns are notorious for going off. Glocks from research do not go off with out a finger on the trigger. Wilson said on tv that he weighed the thought of whether he could get way with shooting Mike Brown. We all know that police are taught to shoot to kill. So his statement to George Stephanapolus should have been "I decided to kill him and I did.