I would like to make amends for the diary I wrote about a week ago titled,
'the left would LOSE a civil war'.
I was paranoid, I sometimes still am, I often feel that the right keeps upping the ante and that if this trend doesn't stop then things will likely go sideways.
I have difficulty coping with that perception but I behaved shamefully as a result.
The bout of angered paranoia came from seeing some of our small handful of resident firearms extremists commenting in a diary about the NYPD.
These commenters received only a handful of recs and were repudiated by comments from others. That should have been that for me.
But I was not reasonable. I irrationally perceived that the broader Daily Kos community didn't do enough to repudiate the firearms extremists, and though it took me a couple of days to consciously realize and own it, I did write that diary in large part as an intended punishment towards the community at Daily Kos.
For letting my fears spiral and lashing out at the Daily Kos community, I am well and truly sorry.
I believe that a lot of great things have and will come out of DailyKos and I want to try do a better job of being a part of that. If you read that past diary and you still feel like you can give me another chance, I humbly thank you.