And I don't quite know what to think. I know I can collect unemployment and part of me is relieved, as some of you know, I've been dealing with a couple of chronic illnesses that have made work harder and harder for me over the last year. But still, I had been there for eight years. It's one fifth of my life and although I was bored out of my mind, it will be a tough adjustment.
But it's over now. I kind of took one for the team as they say. I knew things were bad and I went in and asked my boss again what was going to happen. Are you going to have to lay off Admin? Yes.
Lay me off. I will be okay, the others might not be, but I think I'm the best person to go.
Okay.
I wasn't expecting it to be so damn easy. I get two weeks severance and I will get unemployment. I'm already operating at a diminished salary because I cut my hours a couple of months ago. The change from part time to unemployment shouldn't be so bad.
But I'm still freaking out a bit. I haven't told my husband, it's not something you do over the phone. We still have mountains of debt and a house that's a good $200,000 underwater. I'm hoping Bank of America (who acquired Countrywide who took my loan from Greenpoint) will be more cooperative to modifying my loan. In fact I've already done some praying about that one.
But it still feels like falling off a cliff in some ways.
So here I am at home with a woozle at my feet (Sorry for flaking on the Pootie diary today, oh geez, what a day) and it sorta looks like this...
But I'm numb, sick and just well, panicked all at once.
I have to remember that I have these guys...
and the wonderful man I call my husband. But who wouldn't be scared?
So that happened.
At least I came home to a check for $35 in my mailbox. AIS settled their lawsuit, that's my share. Hope it bodes well.
UPDATE - Just spoke to my husband, his biggest concern seemed to be that they were nice to me about it. God, you gotta love the guy. He knows it's for the best as well and that we will be fine. It's good to have that someone in your life.