I can't stand it anymore. I just can't take it.
Here we are, on the verge of this incredible event, the first woman to be nominated for president in our country, and the media just can't cut her a break, let alone give her one iota of praise. I still have to read the New York Times reporters carry on about how Americans increasingly mistrust her, and how now her numbers are slipping. Even though they have been saying that since January and she is still winning anyway. I still have to sign on to Facebook and see posts by liberals, many of them women, demonizing her over the same stupid issues: her emails, her voice, her workaholism, her poor judgement, her negative numbers, etc etc, and pronouncing that Bernie is the better candidate, and his supporters will never support her. Where do these naysayers think her negative numbers come from? Surely not from them constantly criticizing her? And Bernie still demanding more debates with her, and wanting to debate Trump, who thinks it's just all one great joke. Argh!
I still have to be sick to my stomach listening to this crap about how she stole the election. How my vote and all of the others who voted for her are not to be fully trusted or respected. And I must watch as we are trying our best to defeat ourselves as liberals with this intraparty bashing, instead of singing the praises of this incredible, historic candidate, even as this remarkable event unfolds, this major breakthrough in human rights which is about to take place in our lifetime. She is winning by far more than Obama beat her by, but it is still okay to complain she isn’t winning by enough, there is not enough enthusiasm for her. And to complain that the election was rigged and if it hadn't been, Bernie would have had more votes. But in fact looking at the primary versus caucus results in Washington it's obvious that the opposite is true. There are probably more Hillary supporters that have been bullied out of their voice by Bernie supporters at the caucuses which he often wins. I have suspected that all along, living in a caucus state that went for Bernie and steamrolled over anyone against him in a truly non democratic manner- that is what caucuses seem to be about. And the voter suppression, which also having been engineered by republicans also disproportionately affected minority areas that would have favored Clinton, but for which she was blamed. They report that would have helped Bernie not Hillary without any evidence to support that.
For some reason, which cannot be named lest we be accused of playing the gender card, (as if that is not a valid thing to do) no credit could possibly be given to Hillary for what she has accomplished, in spite of how much shit has been thrown at her for so long. When does the press ever get around to remarking on that? How she, through all this long mudslinging campaign season, remains calm and is so tough, she just takes it and soldiers on. For me, she does that for me, and for women everywhere, and for all other downtrodden people and minorities, she takes that stuff, over and over. And all we can say about it in this country is, now the polls are looking bad for her with Trump, now maybe we should reconsider, that even though she has so many more votes maybe this white man would stand a better chance of being elected.
I just want to scream. I want to be in a huge crowd of people who see this for what it is, and I want to shout "Hillary! Hillary! Hillary!” over and over again at the top of my lungs with them. And I want to cry tears of joy at what she has accomplished in spite of them all. Honestly if Hillary supporters many of whom are women weren't so busy and got together in huge numbers yelling Hillary! the way Sanders supporters do, lots of people would be afraid. So we bottle it up. We act respectful of the right of others, but not us, to scream in public. We have learned the hard way it isn't ladylike to yell. But it is there just below the surface about to erupt.
So instead of screaming, I get to read the press continue to harp on non truths like the fact that Bernie has more enthusiasm among his supporters, and that all of us who voted for Hillary should be ignored because somehow our voices don't matter as much. Give me a break. They will have to acknowledge sooner or later what is happening in this country. I hope they can celebrate it. Because history certainly will. And so will the Clinton supporters who make up the majority of democratic voters and all national voters as well. And I plan to go to Washington D. C. to see her inauguration where I will finally be in that huge crowd. And I hope all the non believers and Hillary haters in the liberal camp will be sorry then, but I fear that instead they will probably just agree knowingly with the next non issue the right dreams up to attack her with. And when the Republicans come up with some lying trash, which I'm sure they will because that's what they do, some of those liberals will feel vindicated for not supporting her and repeat those lies. I can't tell you the reason they will do that. It is not to be discussed out loud. But I know what it is, and so do you.
Martin Luther King said "the arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends toward justice” and I know it is true, and I am glad for that. But these last months of waiting to see this particular event unfold are indeed trying my patience sorely. And the fear that it still could be waylaid lies like a lump of something indigestable in the pit of my stomach. This election can't be over soon enough.