So living on a boat I enjoy watching sailing videos on youtube. There are some really great channels out there to watch, that publish weekly, high quality content — SV Delos, Followtheboat, Sailing Ruby Rose, Sailing Nandji, Sailing LaVagabonde, Sailing Uma — lots and lots to choose from.
Ruby Rose is getting ready to make passage and they are going through their lists of required items and all for the trip to help you learn what you need to do to be ready to go. And that’s awesome, I love things like that. But it made it very clear to me as I was watching it — that I am not cut out for this life. I’m not one of those mechanically inclined people, I don’t learn hands on stuff well by myself, and picturing things in my head or 3D is not my strong suit.
And the time has come to deal with that fact as it is, no longer pretending I will eventually have a complete personality change and suddenly be a tool whiz. Mechanical and electrical things frustrate me rather than fascinate. So I’m never really going to be more than a weekend sailor, there are no oceans in my future. The dream has deflated.
Other problems are the usual sort, batteries on the boat won’t hold a charge and I can’t afford to replace them right now, but that’s $160 that I will find somewhere to be more comfortable. My scars are tight and itchy as ever, but I’m experimenting with the compression bandage being off for longer stretches of time. It hurts, but the skin has to be able to support itself as well, otherwise I might have just invested in a sports bra and been done with it. I have dishes and laundry piling up. I’m probably depressed a bit, but it’s hard to tell with everything else going on. Anyone up for doing the laundry? I hate laundromats on the weekend.