I’ve posted on here before about surgery and the problems hospitals in this country are now dealing with due to lack of medical professionals and rising costs, my dealing with being intersexed and how that has been a thing in my life, on how people should take a second to think when their family comes out as either a transman/transwoman and accept them for who they are , and most recently I’ve even discussed the numerous sexual assaults I have lived through. Today I would like to talk about the thing that causes me the most problems in my life.
Depression.
Since I was in high school I have suffered with depression. Some days it gets to the point I can barely do anything. Beyond that I sometimes enter depressive episodes that last for days, in fact that’s what made me want to write this post today. Ever since I wrote my last blog on here, the one about the assaults, I’ve been in a bad depressive state. Unfortunately that has left me unable to do my work for the last week, which is primarily ghost-writing for writing personalized works for others via commission. I live commission to commission so it’s not exactly a good idea to spend so long not working. I was planning on reactivating my commission site after I recovered but I still haven’t gotten around to that.
There are numerous reasons why the depression has been hitting me worse lately, one of the primary reasons is the lack of my medication. I ran out just before I went in for surgery and due to the immobility after the surgery and the painkillers they gave me for after care, my depression went through the roof. Today I finally got back in to see my psychiatrist and got my medication back.
I only bring all that up to next say this.
It may be hard to deal with your depression. It may feel that nothing can help or that its useless to try. Some days you may find it hard to move or do anything. But it’s not hopeless. I feel that all the time. For me I find it a good idea to talk to therapists, I take medication, and on days I steel feel depression despite all that I take it easy.
While that may not work for you, find what does. It may not be easy to deal with it, but it is possible. If you feel like everything is hopeless take it easy, rest and hopefully find something that helps you. While my suggestions may not be the most helpful, I hope that me talking about my depression can help open a dialogue for others to talk about theirs and help each other find ways to cope with it.