While going through substance abuse treatment , I must take a medication that frequently makes me very seriously ill. As a result, I have had to miss work frequently due to nonstop out of control vomiting, even vomiting blood. Even emergency rooms using IV were unable to stop the vomiting. A solution appeared (ondansentron, drinking lots of water, eating food easy on my stomach, ...) . It did reappear last week. On Wednesday morning, I went into work feeling extremely nauseous despite my antinausea / anti vomiting medication . I fought through almost the whole day. At 3 pm, I knew vomiting was imminent, left work, got to my car and no sooner had I arrived at my car, then did I start vomiting. Since Friday, my nausea has been decidedly better. Missing so much work means my paychecks are half of what they would be and I only make ten dollars an hour despite my education.
I have been driving on tires that I knew were in very poor condition because of lack of money. I kept having to put air the driver’s front tire every 36 hours. Yesterday morning that tire was okay. However, unlike previous days, a huge change had occurred and it was completely flat. My work is 500 feet .from a convenience store with an air pump. I got it there and filled up the tire enough to make it to Discount Tires. We looked at the tires together. Two of the tires were completely bald as the tread was even with the rest of the tire. The other tire were scarcely better. The person at Discount Tire told me that for safety’s sake, I had to replace all four tires. He said one tire was $53 and I thought that was bad. However, the hidden charges were $27 per tire approximately making two tires $160 and four tires $320. That was more than half of all of the money I had in the world. The remainder will not last until my next paycheck. My medication costs seventeen dollars a day. I do not get paid until the Friday after next. I will not have money for food, gas to get to work, or my medication, or take care of my cat Fluffy the Great !
I am desperate. I am trying to tutor and work as many hours as I can. Over the last five days, my health has been better. I am doing everything I can to complete my rehabilitation and start my new life, a self-sufficient life. However, right now, I am not there. I desperately need your help. I would greatly appreciate any help that can be given to help me make it until my next paycheck. Because I ended up still having to miss work last week (which I was hoping would not happen again ) and previous weeks, I will face the following choice:
Do I skip my medication for my medication assisted treatment ($17/day) but then know I could work zero days due to the physiological consequences of quitting this treatment medication cold turkey ? This would mean I would likely lose my job. I would not likely be able to stay on my sober path.
Do I not eat myelf and not buy food for Fluffy the Great ? ‘
Do I not get gas ?
What do I skip ?
Help would be greatly appreciated !!!!! Money can be sent to me via paypal at robertallenproctor4@gmail.dom .
$300 would cover the money I spent on the tires so that I could afford medication, food, and gas. In my situation,
Wednesday, Dec 12, 2018 · 2:50:19 AM +00:00
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Dem
My medication has other side effects some of which seem contradictory (buprenorphine) but it can make you extremely sleepy but it can also cause insomnia. I could barely stay awake today at work and honestly I fell asleep several times driving home. By the time I got home, I was nearly a zombie. This with my other medications has caused me to pass out in the midst of things. As an example, it also can cause problems urinating. So, I have actually fallen asleep / passed out while urinating, fell down and hit my head extremely hard, so hard it left a huge knot on my forehead.
I was in the midst of writing this diary and editing it and I appear to have passed out in the midst of it. My deepest apologies. I am awake now. Thank you for your compassion !
Wednesday, Dec 12, 2018 · 4:03:51 AM +00:00
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Dem
You guys are so amazing to show such compassion to this frail human trying his best to make it through this painful world. I am deeply moved and more grateful than I can fully express. I am in tears at your kindness that people would care about a little person like me. thank you thank you tank you .
At 375 over my goal ---
Wednesday, Dec 12, 2018 · 4:31:26 AM +00:00
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Dem
The update seemed to disappear which is really strange. Or I thought it went through and it did not.
I wrote
You all are amazing I am deeply moved , beyond words, to tears by your compassion I am grateful. I am at $375 last I check and well beyond my goal — thank you so very much !!!