Reid was supposed to be coming home tomorrow. This morning his blood pressure was 203/64. The extremely high blood pressure was what put him in the hospital in March. He sounded like he was close to tears and wants to come home so bad. I’m close to tears myself.
One of the hardest thing about being a caregiver is the feeling of helplessness when there are problems like these and there is nothing you can do to help. The times when you were able to help seems to melt away when something comes up that you can't help with.
Being a caregiver means being on the floor while your brother is having a grand mal seizure, being on the phone to 911 and they are staying on the phone with you, and waiting for the ambulance. Being a caregiver is trying to get dressed while on the phone to a hysterical brother. Being a caregiver is doing everything you can to save your brother’s leg including learning how to take care of an external fixator. Being a caregiver is trying to drive home while crying because they had to amputate your brother's leg.
Being a caregiver is so hard but you wouldn’t have it any other way. Sometimes when it rains the sky is crying.