Right now I am having a lot of problems. Reid’s death has not only hit me emotionally but financially. I can no longer afford to live here and it will take money I don’t have to move. At the moment the bills are at the point where if I pay them I will have no money with which to eat. The two biggest bills are Duke Energy and the Internet. I am trying to sell from the Internet and am trying to set up an Esty account to sell from. I have an account off of Fine Arts America that will pay from last month in a couple of weeks.
To make life even more difficult I was working on some crafts that I want to start selling. I was working on a wreath that will be the prototype of the wreathes that I want to sell. A large glob of hot glue accidentally got on my finger and burned the top layer of skin off leaving a blood red weeping sore and enormous pain.
There are a couple of apartments that I am trying to get into that I can afford on my little Social Security that take pets. I see horror stories of people abandoning their pets. I could never abandon my Pixie. I will have to pay extra at any apartment I get but I will just try and budget for it. My baby goes with me where ever I go.
I am trying to get Reid’s insurance to pay out. I’ve been told that since I am his beneficiary that debtors can not put a lien on it. I am trying to gather all his debts together and let people know there is no estate.
Right now I am in a world of hurt. I am scared trying to get everything together so I can live. I miss Reid so much. I spent 8 hours holding his hand. The hospital that morning called me to get over there as quickly as I could because Reid was dying. He saw me when I bent over him to let him know that his big sister was there. I held his hand until he passed away. I feel guilty because I had been able to nurse him through pneumonia so many times before but couldn’t this last time. I feel like I failed him.
Right now I figure I am going to need at least $5,000.00 for rent, moving, utilities, past due bills, groceries, etc. My PayPal is at michelewilson327 at gmail.com
This is how my life is going right now.