Where do you start when you wish to state your deepest desire,you're strongest emotion, you're bottom line concern. This is not new news, in a sense, it is old news, that has chased me for 35 years.
This will never leave me, so bear with me as I release, this pent up reality, rather than implode.
If such an implosion should get messy, please take the bits of heart and flesh, if any should touch you, and assimilate the bits of myself that is my life, and should any of this get on you, don't worry. Take what you feel is good and toss the rest away. It can easily wash out, and renewal is only a breath away.
The day of innocence preceeded my night of reckoning, when I walked from blindness, to the day time brilliance of death.
When the lies of yesteryear became, the pain of today.
And in the smoke and gloom of a shattered dream, I found myself alone on the edge of the jungle, and face to face I met the only source of life between myself and the bullet of death.
Bow down boy to the gods of war, plot your rounds and spread, death all around, it don't matter who they are, but spread, death all around.
When the ammo ran low, they sent some more, saying use it up boy, we'll send some more, make sure you spread death all around.
When the death was spread all around, they slapped me on the back, and said "good job boy, three days incountry R&R, for a job well done, for spreading death all around".
This is as real as real.
If I could sum up some grand statement, some profound word of the horrors of war, some turning point of belief, some word of experiance, that could change the current war lords penchant for war lust, I would, but alas
The wheel of fortune is a bloody game, don't touch they say, just play!