Come join me with my pity party. I have no other place to let this out, no one I can talk to without upsetting them. I have a small spark of hope. It will be bigger again but right now while it is just a spark I have to poor it out. Hope others will join together to get it out so together we will be free.
I don't see any answer out of the mess we are in. We almost got caught up on the basics with some over time. Now with all the time off with a illness no doctor seems to figure out we are in even deeper. I just got notice from the complex I live. Everything the over manager promised wouldn't happened did. Now there will be no robbing peter to pay paul. Now I will not be able to right a check on Thursday night to go through Friday so I would not have to pay a 100 dollar late fee because the rent would be due on a Thursday and I got paid on Friday. I am no longer allowed to write checks. We were short this month and I was told that I was an hour too late to fix the problem. So what she would do is take my check run it, it would bounce but not to worry about it. The second time it ran it would be the date that I told them I can pay. No worries I would be able to write checks in the future etc. It didn't work that way. Today is Thursday, it was suppose to run tomorrow. My husband's passport to prove his citizenship so we can get his loans so he can go to night school still hasn't come in and time is running out. I doesn't matter anyway because if he gets it in time the debt ceiling default will affect his grant anyway, making it a mute point. Phone bill is due and all the fees the early run has incurred jeopardizes it. I can't deal with it. Yet I sit here watching pie fights, pissing fights, and people playing with our lives and the weight is piling on my chest so much I can't breathe. I can't catch my breath. I have to get my son's birth certificate to get him into school. More and more and more. Don't the people up in Washington not see they are killing us. They are literally killing us. How many more years are we meant to go through this? How hard are we to fight, when we fight just to fucking survive.