I survived today, again. It is that birthday that many of us have. The day that we should not have survived, but did somehow. Today was that day for me. In 1991 a crew of seven good men entered hell, two stayed behind immediately, another three have joined them by their own hand over the years. I spoke to the other survivor and his wife today, we will both continue on. I wasn't sure I would be able to, but I learned from a good friend, that if you express yourself just enough to take the pressure off, life gets easier. I must admit, I taste like Christmas now. That is OK. A little bourbon numbs the memory and lightens the soul.
Sat Feb 02, 2013 at 10:40 PM PT: I have survived again, for the 23rd time now. It did come with some complications. The heart condition I have had in the past has come back. Some think it was partially caused by my ordeal. I agree. Now I have to go under the knife for a "convergence procedure". Oh well, time to make lemonaide.
I would like to thank a couple very good people for helping me survive this day now and in the past. One is not on this site, the other is. Both are class acts and I wish them all the best this world has to offer.
Mon Feb 03, 2014 at 9:30 AM PT: Another year has passed and it has gotten much easier. I was even able to watch Lone Survivor without any real difficulty. (just a few tears) The year has had some real down times, but they are not associated directly with this birthday. I have had the help and compassion of others to help me in the past. I now will go it alone. I have the inner strength to do this and must. It is a natural progression for me. Aloha and Mahalo.