Let me tell you - this is really personal. I have a tough time talking about it. But now is the time to speak.
When I was just a kid - all of 14 - I was raped.
This is not about that though.
This is about the mother I have. This is about the mother I had.
Mom is slowly fading from Alzheimer's Disease,a terrible, heartbreaking deterioration of the mind, but she was a truly amazing mom.
I was just a child at 14 and seriously naive. I thought a handsome college boy would do me no harm.
To make a long story short, he did. I was terrified and confused. I felt guilty, responsible, and didn’t want anyone to know.
Then I found out that I was pregnant. I didn't want to tell my parents, but there was no choice.
My mom brought me to a Dr. who treated me like I was slut. He said some things and my mom told him off. We then found a Dr. that was much more understanding and compassionate. My mom stayed with me the whole time. She was the one that made a decision I was too young to make. She told me to have an abortion. She made that terrifying decision so I didn't have to. She was with me through it all.
Years later I asked her if she had really believed that I had been raped or that I just had unprotected sex. She told me that yes, she had believed me. I had never lied to my mom. Even so, it felt so good to know that when I was scared and vulnerable, she had my back. She was always there for me, no matter what.
Now I am there for her.
Sometimes I will tell her about this War on Women and she can't get what's wrong with people. She thinks that those men are nuts. She insists they are nuttier than her! I have to agree.
So, this is for you mom. I just wanted you to know that I have your back.
4:53 PM PT: I just want to thank this community for all the wonderful comments and heartfelt concern. You have given so much to me. I never thought that a blog would help me so much.
To all of you, thank you.
May we all have peace and love tonite.
To Ono,thanks for your help, expressing myself has always been tough.
5:07 PM PT: I must head upstairs now to get some sleep. Mom will be up at whatever time. Thank you again.
I love this community