Whew. First day I can take a bit of a break. Been going pretty much non-stop for the last four so a bit of a chance to reflect.
So, a lot of this is probably going to be rather narcissistic/egocentric reflection on my situation.
I apologize profusely. Just know that I'm still blown away by the help you folks have given me emotionally, and I'm going to keep on, no matter what.
(Day, and thoughts on the flip)
So, after I left the library, got a beer. ONE beer. I needed one. Went to the hotel with the kids, let them play some games, and I took a nap. Ended up being a 3 hour nap, but with the amount I've been sleeping I needed it.
Woke up around 6. Made some dinner for the kids, watched a little TV, and since it was getting late, went to bed early. Last time I recall was 10:45, so looks like I got some more sleep last night. Phew.
Woke up this morning to a call from one of my local contacts. When I was living at my parents place, this guy called my folks on their bullshit, and pointed out that what they were doing to me was in fact illegal. My folks immediately made me call him to denounce his actions and praise my folks. I was in no position to argue at the time, and had broken off all contact. He was willing to forgive me today, after I explained what had happened, and he promised to call the VTC in order to try to get me some more time, or another option with regards to my housing. Explained that I intended to leave the area, but appreciated his work on my behalf.
Got a call from HUD-VASH right as I arrived at the library. Now have contact number for Portland HUD, and news that they are housing veterans fairly easily up there. Going to call as soon as I finish here.
And that's pretty much it. Yesterday got much more sedate after I diaried, and I don't have any major appointments till tomorrow.
I think what I'm realizing right now is that while this homelessness is bad, it's nowhere near the toxic and demeaning situation I was in. I'm sure my folks really did think they were doing the right thing, and that I was a lazy parasite. At the same time, I've come to accomplish much more with my situation since I've gotten out of there.
Perhaps it's just the 15 miles closer to the Library. Maybe it's because I finally decided to stop taking every single word they say as gospel. Whatever the reason, I'm still in a bad way, but emotionally feeling much better. My PTSD is calmed a bit, even though I really want some more stability, I have hope for the future.
Next Monday, if the plan stays the same, I'm Heading north,. SHould have some cash, and contacts for a place that will be a permanent solution.
Thanks again folks. If your town wants a disabled veteran, I'll be on the road soon. :) Just looking for a place to land, type, send kids to school, etc.
Aaaand my ex-wife sent me an email thatt she's getting remarried. Fun times...