I was/am a Sanders supporter. I almost maxed out my contributions to his campaign. I do not like Clinton. I don’t find her to be a genuine public servant, as genuine public servants don’t line their pockets at the doors of Goldman Sachs and Citibank. She is also reviled, right or wrong, by a huge portion of this country. She is also a really bad campaigner. So i shouted all this from the mountain top. We can’t nominate her, it has to be Bernie. He was polling better versus Trump, was generating great enthusiasm, and had a real, genuine message, and we have to beat Trump above all else!
But then she won the nomination. We knew there was DNC collusion, but we didn’t find out until later how much there was, or that Donna Brazile was feeding her debate questions during the primary. Against my guy. But nevertheless, she won. So I got on board, like a good Democrat. I made the case for her. I annoyed my friends on Facebook with repeated posts all the way to election day about the relative merits of her positions versus the Orange Menace. I argued with Trumpsters daily. I figured I had to give it my all, because in my mind, it’s more important to beat Trump than whether we get Sanders or Clinton. We had to beat Trump.
But we didn’t. She didn't. And I WAS there for her. I was the good Democrat. And it feels like shit. I do not want to thank Clinton supporters. I have a lot of anger still. I feel like I have to take a shower after all I said and did for her. Yes, it really was the right thing to do, and we had to beat Trump. But I still feel like shit about it. Did I not do enough for Sanders? Should I have been harder on Clinton and her supporters? What should I have done? All I know is I really don’t feel any gratitude. I don’t feel like apologizing either. I just feel like dirt.