As I have long written, we may be filters of consciousness more than we are producers of consciousness. If consciousness is not simply a product of human brains, then it may be all around, always available for experience and insights, no group membership or spiritual guides are required. No special trips are necessary. On the contrary, many groups and spiritual guides hinder development and give faulty advice in order to advance their own interests.
What do I know? I am proudly nobody going nowhere doing nothing. I have no position, title or publisher. I’m just a part time blogger who has failed miserably in multiple endeavors. For those who wish to learn more about my misery, you can peruse I Was Fired by APHL for Bringing a Bicycle into a National Meeting at a Convention Center, Science protection racket, SWM failure inspired by your courage and dignity, and Anti-Capitalist Meetup: Hierarchies of Sycophancy.
Based on experience, if you want my advice, don’t listen to me. I am not looking for advice, especially from those giving it without bothering to read.
I have accepted my failures and am ok to talk about them. I don’t need to follow phony approved branding messages and looks. My pain is part of who I am. I do not deny it. Nor do I deny the suffering caused entirely by human institutions, beliefs and practices.
Spare me condescending pity and advice. Such measures are not meant to help me, but rather to address the fears of others. Why do so called spiritual gatekeepers devote so much effort to stifling emotions and instituting conformist hierarchies? It is certainly not for the development of those they get to go along to get along. Try being honest about your fear of my emotions and how my actions might affect your own hopes and expectations.
I am not afraid of my emotions interfering with my spiritual development. I appreciate what I feel in this temporary life. I do not tell others that they need to stifle themselves for spiritual advancement. Neither do I attack or abuse others even when I am emotional. I apologize to those I hurt, but that is no reason to deny my emotions. It’s more for this imperfect human to work on.
Inordinate attention to competition over cooperation and community often make violence seem like a reasonable alternative. But our communities rely on cooperation at least as much as competition. War, death and domination will not save our communities. I am at peace with my position of nonviolence in this entropic world of limited resources.
As a living biologist, I am keenly aware that trillions of things have gone right over billions of years in order for me to relax and take my next breath. No group membership is required for feeling or appreciating the magic of my body on planet Earth. As yet, nobody owns life or consciousness. Gatekeepers are unnecessary, and, if fact, are often hindrances to personal experiences, such as awareness of my body, life and spirit.
Real development comes with experience and appreciation, not stifling fear. All of my emotions are part of me and my development. Promotion of favored emotions while denying others does not help. I’m not here to be shamed into submission, cower in compliance, or serve a few. I’m not here for contrition and groveling. I’m not looking for salvation or ascension to save me from life. No angels, aliens or spirit masters need to translate or teach for us. Life, awareness and consciousness are all around for all to experience. And, this life is plenty good too. We can do so much better in caring for and learning from what we already have. I’m not looking to escape. I’m here to help others have opportunities to experience the magic on Earth for as long as possible. I am here to stand with family, friends, comrades and compatriots working towards access for all, not to stifle anybody, control any spiritual process, stroke my ego, or seek fame. Spiritual beings and so called masters are welcome to roll up their sleeves and join us.
For me to develop, I need real emotions and conversation, not mealy mouthed, wishy washy sentiments on joy. Yes, I love joy as much as I value each of my emotions. Don’t waste your time trying to sell me the fool’s gold of right temperament. It is just more ineffective spreading of out of touch denial meant to turn people against themselves and each other for power and control. I will not abide such nonsense.
If you are not in denial about the world and human well-being, then show us how open you are in conversations about ongoing climate crises, pollution of physical, spiritual and cyber commons, fascism, politics, and economic exploitation favoring a few. For your own good, try worrying more about those things, and less about my rational and justified emotional state. Help us to do something about our challenges in this world. It might cost some followers, but it will be more honest and spiritually rewarding than denial of the world and emotions.