So I wanted to do a follow-up to my original 'Woe is me' post (Life sucks and then you die. I'm just waiting now). I'm not trying to downplay how I felt--because I was NOT doing well... however, thanks to some of my IRL friends, and to this wonderful community, I am feeling much better, and more optimistic overall.
Firstly, yes, I'm still unemployed, still struggling and my Unemployment Benefits are going to run out in a handful of weeks. If I don't have a job by then, I will be pretty good and well-screwed. I do have family members I could live with, BUT (and this is huge!!), I'd have to give up my cats. There really wouldn't be any other way around. There are dogs and allergies and stuff like that involved.
I DO NOT WANT TO GIVE UP MY CATS. For goodness' sake, one of them I've had since he was 8 weeks old, and I've had him for over 14 years now. (That’s him with his back to the camera. And, yes, he is THAT big.)
That’s him, Doyle, with his back to the camera. And, yes, he is THAT big. The small one in the middle is Joey, and my girl on the right is Katerina. (No, Joey and Katerina did not come from the same litter, LOL!)
And, of course, I'd lose my apartment as well and it would just be bad. Very bad. But, I'm trying to have faith.
Secondly, my foot--I called my doctor again and according to notes (that weren't told to me on my September 19th appointment), when I went back on October 19th, I was supposed to transfer from using the boot to using the shoe. So I've begun using the shoe I have exclusively. And I'm feeling OK.
Thirdly, my presence here. I stopped posting regularly because I was at my sister's house for nearly 3 months recovering and the easy access to the computer was just not there (not to mention that I had to keep my foot elevated for much of that time). So, I just didn't post as much and by that time other people were doing the Hillary diaries. And then came the election results, and frankly, it was hard coming here because there wasn't so much mourning as placing blame, and emotionally, I just couldn't deal with that.
However, after I put my last diary up explaining my situation... I was reminded of how great this community is. I was reminded of all of the wonderful people I have gotten to know. I realized that I had let negative diaries take precedence over the good here. I don't want to make that mistake again. I'm working on a few projects--trying to get some extra money, but it's not easy--but I AM GOING to make a concerted effort to be more involved once more in the community. There is so much that is wonderful here, I no longer refuse to let any downside take away from what I love.
Lastly, I mentioned money issues up above... well, here's the thing. The Unemployment Benefits don't even cover all my bills. So, I'm having to dip into my nearly depleted savings (thanks, broken foot!) that I had just begun to build up again in order to cover the rest. This is not going to last very long... especially with those benefits coming to an end not too far off. Several people have suggested that since I need help to just suck it up and ask for it. I need help of the financial sort. Any bit helps. SO MUCH!
MY PAYPAL ADDRESS IS: arabean@att.net
Again, it’s: arabean@att.net (in case the bold/big font makes it not work when putting it in to send.)
EVERY LITTLE BIT HELPS.
I really do need help. Please, please if you have the funds and can help, IT WOULD BE SO VERY, VERY MUCH APPRECIATED. I just have no words to describe how much it could help me right now. So please! Thank you.
Also, anyone who reads this, please rec/tip it so that it stays on the front page sidebar list of diaries as long as possible. Getting onto the Rec list for a time would help a lot in getting eyes on this diary. (Thanks to SottoVoce for pointing that out.)